Off Center

I’m feeling a bit off center today. Yesterday was similar, although it cleared by late afternoon. Perhaps it’s the planets that are aligning, Mercury Retrograde and all that’s happening in the air, society, the world and the Earth. There’s an overwhelming sense of chaos today that’s vibrating within me. I’ll admit, it’s a bit unnerving to say the least. Are you feeling this as well?

Like a little off kilter? Not quite able to focus? Staying quiet and not dealing with the world at large? I’m not exactly afraid of anything. Just unnerved by the energies. Something is brewing. Do you feel it? Or is it just in my area? Because on the surface, all seems normal without any glitches, but it’s as if there’s a slice in view that’s distorted, unreadable – like when the television buzzes out something they think shouldn’t be seen.

There’s almost a feeling of bereftness, as if what’s missing brings me great sadness. That overwhelming hitch in your breathing that happens when you’re overcome with grief. While perhaps I have much to grieve, I do not normally allow it to affect me in this way. I allow the feelings to move through me so that they do not stagnate and fester.

I may be picking up someone else’s energy, but I am not sure whose it is. I feel that heaviness in my chest and my lungs constrict. I wonder if someone I know is passing and we are together even as I write these words. I am connected to many. The cords are many. Some are larger than others. Some I have cut, but they grow back. The ones that are no longer healthy, I have removed, but sometimes they sneak back into me and need removal again. Long time relationships can be like that, even if they are no longer.

I know there is a cleansing needed, but my energy is low. Perhaps a little bit of clearing will suffice until I can arise in the morning and clear myself with more energy. In the meantime, I allow the flow of feelings to run its course as I try to keep my head above the surface and my balance as best I can.