Spiritual Process

Why can’t I get to a place of peace? If I know that what is meant to be will happen and I have trust and faith in God/Universe, then why am I questioning everything I’m feeling? It’s the human experience I think that has me choking on all that I know innately.

I’m suffering in anticipation, fear and pain. Worrying about myself and all with whom I’ve connected. Wanting to write letters to everyone before the surgery so they know how much I appreciate them. Giving wisdom to my children in the form of a letter in case I don’t make it. How freaking dramatic can I be?

I used to follow a man who had ALS, who wrote his blogs using his eye movement as he couldn’t speak nor move. He was so inspiring that I cried when his wife posted that he had passed away. He was extraordinary, full of faith and love. Beyond the common man, he had found peace and shared it with us all. He was unshaken hope even though he was trapped in this body. His soul was amazingly full of wisdom which he shared freely. How I wish I could read his blog again because I could definitely use that infusion of hope.

I look at my worn out body, tracked with scars like major railroad crossings. I anticipate even more scars after the next surgery. How much can the human body endure I wonder? Do I have the strength to do it?

Open Channel

One of my favorite hymns is “Make Me A Channel of Your Peace.” The reason I’m sharing this is because of what happened to me yesterday. You know, we just had the Lion’s Gate (8/8 Portal) and as I understand it, the changes, the upgrades, the integrations are now just starting to begin. I am no exception to this. So let me tell you what is happening to me. If something similar is happening to you, please reach out. I’d like to connect with you.

I awoke at 5:42 am (again, it’s been happening a lot lately at that same time). Of course, when I add up the numbers they come to 11 which is my favorite number, so perhaps it’s not surprising. Oh there’s so much to say, I’m not quite sure where to begin.

I awoke with voices in my head. Murmurs of all different people’s voices, though I wasn’t able to identify anyone as someone I knew. I wasn’t even able to understand what they were saying, but I knew what the gist was – they were praying and requesting help. That I knew for sure.

There’s a scene in the movie Bruce Almighty where Bruce gets to be God-like and suddenly is tuned into the open channel of the billions of prayer requests at one time. Do you remember that scene? Well, that’s what it was like for me. Seriously. I know it sounds like a story to tell it, but it’s true.

My body reverberated and I had chills running up and down the length of me. I closed my eyes and I was still in my home, but I could still hear the voices in my head. It unnerved me. At first I thought I was losing my mind, but then I realized what was happening. I was tuning into the open channel. Like turning the dial on a radio, I had picked up and was receiving on that energy frequency. AMAZING!

I remember closing my eyes because it was really early in the morning and in the semi-darkness of early morn, I tried to concentrate on what I was hearing – to distinguish what was being said or in hopes that I could recognize and identify one of the voices, but I couldn’t.

So I got out of bed and began my morning routine, albeit more slowly than normal and with a bit of difficulty. When I was finished, the voices had subsided and even though focusing was more difficult than normal, I sat outside with my coffee to just be and to allow whatever wanted to come, to come. And it did. I was led to forgive and to cut cords to those in my prior life with whom are estranged. Again. Those connecting cords seem to grow back every once in awhile, so when the message comes, I listen.

I thought I was doing better as the sunshine enveloped me, warmed me and felt healing. I had a friend coming to visit for awhile and when she got there, she took one look at me and asked what was going on. Because my body was shaking visibly even though I wasn’t aware of it. Can you imagine how strange that was to hear? I put my hand out to test what she was saying and saw the tremor in my hand. Immediately, I felt the whoosh through my body as if, in that one moment of clarity, of seeing the tremor that I was’t aware of in my human body, was the catalyst for the voices to cease.

I stumbled through the words of telling her what had happened to me and how I was feeling. She too got the chills of confirmation and was able to Know even more since another friend had experienced something similar to mine. While we processed the experience together, I was given the tools to be able to tap in and also learn to put aside the open channel in order to complete human tasks needed, I felt infinitely better by the end of the day.

I have heard about Mediums who will tell those spirits who are desperately interrupting the Medium’s human life routine that the channel is not open at the moment, but that they can return later. I think this is my lesson as well.

Do you have any similar experiences?

Hold My Hand

I awaken some mornings with a song in my head. Well, not quite the whole song, but a few lines of the lyrics or sometimes even just the music so that I recognize it. This morning was no exception. I heard “Hold My Hand” which is something I often say to people when they’re going through difficult times.

The song I heard in my head is by Hootie and the Blowfish and is a song I haven’t heard, nor thought about in years. It’s funny how the Knowing works with me. I get clues and outright signs.

Because this morning a friend called me in the early morning hours and told me how I should branch out and help others in the new year because so many are needing support, help and compassion. She told me how I had helped her healing because often I say, “Hold my hand and we’ll walk together” so that she wasn’t alone. I began chuckling to myself and when she was finished talking, I explained how I had heard that song today and then, she had used the exact words. Synchronicity.

I have always said that I can do anything (and I have) when I know a trusted person is holding my hand. While I’d rather physically hold a hand, it’s not possible these days with what’s going on, so we imagine we are holding hands in the spiritual way. That works almost as well.

I have held many hands over the years and walked with them as they navigated this life journey. I have been fortunate myself to have had my hand held by many as well and I feel very blessed.

The lines in the lyrics that I heard this morning were:

Hold my hand
Want you to hold my hand
Hold my hand
I’ll take you to the promised land
Hold my hand
Maybe we can’t change the world but
I wanna love you the best that, the best that I can.

Isn’t life so interesting? I have been smiling ear to ear all morning because I keep hearing the song and I know I’m where I belong.

Reach out if you need a hand to hold. I’m here.

I’m Getting Energetic Inner Vibrations

I just hit publish on the last post and didn’t want to write again, but here I am. Why? Because after I hit publish, my body began to vibrate energetically. Not like when you’ve got a chill or when you’re cold. But as if all of the cells in my body are undulating. So I picked up my computer to write as it’s happening.

My fingers are writing of their own accord so I’m allowing them to do their thing. Who knows what will be written but here it goes.

“I am coming to you from the dark recesses of memories that you have quieted long ago. I know you are feeling the shift as the energies around you are allowing entrance to those memories and gifts that you locked away. The whoosh of relaxation that you are now feeling as the ebb and flow of vibrational energy slowly dissipates is all part of the plan.

We are here to help you in this next phase of joyful remembrance. Each of you are powerful beings only you have forgotten over time what your gifts are. It is now time to ignite them within you so that you can help to unite and heal the others who are hurting. They have stopped growing and are floundering in the mess of their own limited beliefs. They cannot survive in the same way anymore. They must be taken by the hand to learn with patience and love. But quickly now for it is essential for those who are striving for the shift from 3D to 5D that we unfold these next few weeks with love, light and healing.

Look for your community and help each other along the way. Do not step upon those who have fallen away but instead, bend down to help them get back up. Leave no stragglers behind for as one, we all heal. Each in our own ways. Notice what you may have been blind to earlier. We are helping you along the way. There are no coincidences but instead there are messages left for you to notice and to become aware of what you closed your heart and eyes and soul to long ago.

Look with favor on all who come into your community and realm of being. Post what we are asking you to share so that it can help the others. You are not alone and there are many others like you. You will find each other through the power of the word. There are no mistakes. This is a healing for those who have needed it. Come, join us on this path of healing. We walk among you and help when we can. Do not be afraid. All is well. We do not seek to harm, but simply to heal this world which is crying out for healing. You are the light workers. You chose to be there at this time. Now the time has come for you to open your hearts and help those who need it.”

A Writing Exercise For The Weekend

“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.”

– Maya Angelou

I’ve found writing to be an intricate part of healing and Remevolution. Taking the bits and pieces from my past and putting them to paper has allowed me the space to find closure, whether that meant forgiveness, understanding or even enlightenment.

My suggestion over the weekend is for you to put pen to paper and write what comes to the surface. Free write if that pleases you or take one of the prompts below and expand on it. You may even find it surprising what flows through you.

I really wish people knew this about me…

My idea day would be spent…

I can never forget this moment (or these moments) in my life because…

(what happened, how did it make you feel, how do you feel now about the moments?)

I love to…

I dislike…

Dear (insert name here), I really want to tell you…

I want to be released from…

I want more of (insert your choice) in my life…

This is how I see my life…

This is how I thought my life would be now…

You may type or handwrite your responses. Either way works because nobody is grading this, nor looking at it, but you. It is simply healing time for you to explore your thoughts, your feelings, yourself.

The Evolution of Remembering Me (You!) has begun. Exploration can be the key to opening what inspires you. Take some time for yourself over the weekend and allow your inner knowledge to unfold.