Off Center

I’m feeling a bit off center today. Yesterday was similar, although it cleared by late afternoon. Perhaps it’s the planets that are aligning, Mercury Retrograde and all that’s happening in the air, society, the world and the Earth. There’s an overwhelming sense of chaos today that’s vibrating within me. I’ll admit, it’s a bit unnerving to say the least. Are you feeling this as well?

Like a little off kilter? Not quite able to focus? Staying quiet and not dealing with the world at large? I’m not exactly afraid of anything. Just unnerved by the energies. Something is brewing. Do you feel it? Or is it just in my area? Because on the surface, all seems normal without any glitches, but it’s as if there’s a slice in view that’s distorted, unreadable – like when the television buzzes out something they think shouldn’t be seen.

There’s almost a feeling of bereftness, as if what’s missing brings me great sadness. That overwhelming hitch in your breathing that happens when you’re overcome with grief. While perhaps I have much to grieve, I do not normally allow it to affect me in this way. I allow the feelings to move through me so that they do not stagnate and fester.

I may be picking up someone else’s energy, but I am not sure whose it is. I feel that heaviness in my chest and my lungs constrict. I wonder if someone I know is passing and we are together even as I write these words. I am connected to many. The cords are many. Some are larger than others. Some I have cut, but they grow back. The ones that are no longer healthy, I have removed, but sometimes they sneak back into me and need removal again. Long time relationships can be like that, even if they are no longer.

I know there is a cleansing needed, but my energy is low. Perhaps a little bit of clearing will suffice until I can arise in the morning and clear myself with more energy. In the meantime, I allow the flow of feelings to run its course as I try to keep my head above the surface and my balance as best I can.

Ch- Ch- Ch- Changes

We all hold the tenacity to remain stuck our limiting beliefs, thoughts and story. Breaking out of those minute details often requires a spiritual sledgehammer of sorts and a friend on whom you can rely for being honest, centered and open to your desire to follow the path. Sometimes we need someone who will hold steady as the majority of people prefer the path of least resistance when it comes to changes. Because that’s the way most of us view change. But that’s not always the case.

We’ll sooner acquiesce to change as long as it doesn’t upset us dramatically in any way. Slow moving change is often preferable because we can ease into new thinking and expand our horizons bit by bit instead of bearing one of those huge changes that feels like it wipes out all that we thought we knew and the playing field changes immediately with one solid whack. While those are not fun, sometimes they’re necessary and the Universe delivers. Believe me, I have a few Universal whacks over my lifetime. I assume that it was because I wasn’t getting the subtle messages of change so there was no other way. I was plodding through life without something to shake me up, clear out the cobwebs of outdated ways of thinking and so in one grand swoop, there was no going back to it.

I find ascension that way as well. A cha cha dance of sorts with one step up, two steps back and maybe a little twirling before we start the music again. Best done with a partner in order to help us process what is going on and to be able to mirror the observer point of view when it gets sticky. Lucky for me, I have a few partners and we all collaborate in different ways. Each brings their own special wisdom to the dance, their specialty in order to help us all to rise from 3D to 5D.

How are you doing with these changes? Are you aware of them? Dreading them? Or on the fence about embracing them? Have you started down that path of no return to 3D or are you unaware of the changes that are moving through powerfully at this time?

How I Change

I met for coffee outside with a good friend recently. It was really cold outside, so we bundled up and sat out on the patio sipping hot coffee and actually enjoying the winter weather. We talked for a long time, each of us loving being outside with nature. The hawk made his appearance as he usually does when she comes over to visit. While I see the hawk often, he catches my eye more and more often when she’s here. I have to look up the spiritual wisdom of hawk. A post for another day.

But as it happens with us often, we began sharing the Woo Woo updates that are happening to us. Each of us had similar physical and mental symptoms as I’ve talked about in prior posts. Both of us had touches of what we worried were the beginnings of the dreaded Covid, but much to our delight and relief, we believe they were Ascension Symptoms because as fast as they came on, they were released.

Spiritual downloads are like that in a way. The physical body changes as the energies move through us. We are given that surge which can feel like extreme exhaustion or fogginess mentally as whatever updates are received. It sounds like a computer update, doesn’t it? But that’s what I am understanding. We are spiritually being updated in order to move from 3D to 5D, each in our own way and on our own divine timing.

While we were talking outside, I felt the Knowing as she was explaining a situation to me. I do remember looking at her and listening as the chatter began in my mind. The Knowing as I refer to it was talking to me at the same time that she was. When she stopped talking, I began to tell her what I heard/know. I channeled a message to her that she needed to know. When we were done and had moved beyond that part of the conversation, she told me how I change.

Remember how I said this friend told me when she knew I was getting a Knowing message? She had said I change physically, but I hadn’t asked how. Today she told me that while she was talking she observed my face go blank and my eyes almost seemed to cross. I laughed aloud. Yikes! I must seem to look very odd! But she said she recognized the look and knew it was the Knowing. And it was.

While I’m not thrilled that I must look a mess when it happens, I am grateful for the knowledge. She is very spiritual herself so it is a comfort to know that she recognizes that it’s happening to me. I am also grateful that when I tell her the message I’ve received, even when it may be difficult to deliver, that she understands it is from a higher realm.

When I am in the zone of Knowing, I feel almost above my body if that makes sense. Additionally when I tag a post as being channelled, please know that it is the Knowing that takes over the keyboard and writes through me to you. More and more I am finding that it is happening with me and I feel as if I am able to help others through this experience.

Transportable

They’re asking me to write and while a delicious chill just ran through my body, even though I am snuggled on the couch under an electric blanket on its highest setting with the laptop on my lap…here it goes.

Transportable. You may take all the good with you at this time. But you must leave the darkness behind. That’s not to say that there is no darkness and what is coming is only light. It simply means that the burdens of your past are to be surrendered, released, allowing yourself to drop the baggage that you’ve been carrying. The toxicity in misunderstandings, the relationships that have been outgrown. The stories that no longer exist that you hold onto for the past’s sake.

You are transportable to the next level of ascension, wisdom, understanding as light workers. You choose this, even though we have already chosen you and you are aware. Packing light you may take what you wish as long as it is beneficial; as what doesn’t serve, who doesn’t serve, may be left behind at this time.

Your chills keep rising even though you are not sick. You know that you must write, but you cannot focus as you have in the past. What is blocking your view? Your connection? Yes, it is you. And the winds of change which have returned in full force even topping over chairs with the silent, invisible hands are here.

You are thinking too much. Grasping at megabytes, but then losing the connection. Too wrapped in your body’s purge of the toxic mass that has accumulated.

There are no right answers. There are no definitively wrong answers either. This is a trial and error for us all. Why do you expect perfection when it is so boring? What grows, titillates and increases in energy is not easy to manage, but it is not to manage. It is to be. To allow. To fluidly float, immersing oneself in the multilayered experience of this time.

Your fears aren’t worthy of the time you spend on them. Clear your mind and heart source. We can only speak through you when you are a clear channel. That is why this is message is so choppy and rambling and distorted.

It is meant to be written. for it is to help you to clear, remind and be with all of those who read it. For we are here with you (hear). No that wasn’t a mistake. We hear you. We are here with you.

Purge the intellect and feel the answers. You have it all inside of you. You know what you must do which is to fly. Let go. Release. Be free. Your outdated thinking is over. There’s a new horizon. Look to it.

The Winds of Change

When the winds pick up, I often feel them physically, mentally and emotionally. My connection to nature and to my surroundings affects me in different ways. A migraine can result from a windy day as well as feeling distressed, not centered and untethered. I cannot fight the winds for I know that they are bringing to me change, whether I like it or not, whether I embrace the opportunity or not. It’s there and until I surrender and release my resistance, it will continue to plague me.

What you resist, persists…

Often the winds of change are a clearing mechanism to set the record straight, to get rid of the debris that holds us back and to clear a path for our continued journey. That is what has been happening to me. While I find it difficult at times to trust in the surrendering, the releasing, I know that letting go is the right choice for me and the winds are here to aid me.

So I allowed the winds to blow away what isn’t mine by Divine Right. I released and surrendered to what is flowing from me and embraced what is flowing to me, through me, with the belief that I may remain centered, grounded, and calm even in a storm.

Are you feeling the winds of change in your life as well? What is here for you when you listen to your heart, your mind, your spirit, your soul and your physical body? Do you weep or are you joyfully embracing the changes?

I Look To The Light

In troubled times, I look to the light. For the Light shines even in the darkest of days. It is only through the darkness that we can truly see the Light so while troubled times feel dark (and they are) there is hope still shining.

A new dawn, the sunset, the moon rise and the cyclical time line that begets days and nights, seasons and years continues. Like breath, we find ourselves comfortably numb to the magic that is life. We dissolve our tears and disappointments and forget about counting our blessings. Seeing the bigger picture and not concentrating on the trials and tribulations of the human experience.

We chose down into our shells and withdraw. We allow negativity to loop and feel as if there is no place to go. We lose our energetic wisdom and ties to the Light. We lose ourselves in the infinite changing world.

I look to the Light when this happens. Innately as with breathing, I come back to Source as my centeredness increases. I find strength in the Light. My powerful source of union with all that is mine by Divine Right. With the enthusiasm of a child surprised by an overnight snow, I feel the magic of healing releasing me from the tethers of darkness to rise again and shine.

The Light and the Darkness work in tandem to help us. I do not fear the Darkness in the same way as others do. Darkness is the helpful reminder to me that there is Light. Yin and Yang. The duality of life experiences as we human beings walk this path on the earth.

As beacons of the Light, we connect with each other without fear. We bond in our humanity, our frailties and our strengths. Each helping the other on this life journey. For all of our circumstances are similar – each with its own set of characters, situations and pains, but jointly as a growing experience. I can understand your story as you can understand mine when we connect with Light.

We ascend en masse though perhaps each at his/her own speed. A helping hand, a listening ear, a compassionate heart and with wisdom through our own personal experiences we rise together. Lighting the way for the others.

Jasmine

The smell of night blooming jasmine appears and I am taken back to fond memories. Simply, with a whiff of the fragrance, I am transported to simpler days and a young love that I have never forgotten.

I often wonder if it is on a cellular level that these precious moments exist, combining their effervescence with whiffs of memories to surround me with the loving embrace I crave. Whilst I cannot go back to that time, nor place, nor person, there is a calling to me today for that feeling again.

Change is here to be embraced. Letting go of all that is not in the present. Wishing and hoping, basking in past glories – neither suits me. Firmly my feet are planted in the present moment with that spiritual fragrance wafting in the winds.

The Refinishing

I awoke with a sadness deep in my soul. A hitch in my breathing normally that comes when I suppress a sob. Have you been feeling the energetic changes as well? As if we are being stripped of the past, the heartsick moments that have stuck like tar on our bones to be refinished like a fine antique, back to the glory which is ours inherently.

But it comes at a price, this stripping of the darkness, the aging, the past sadness and shame. It refinishes us to a beautiful radiance from which we can never return. I have never been one that is good with goodbyes even when I know that an ending is a new beginning.

While we move from 3D to 4D to 5D, the refinishing process is in full tilt. Chaos in dismembering of fragments of low vibrations are being cleared and we are called upon to elevate our spirits even when many of us would prefer to hunker down in our bubbles to rest and have the time to rejuvenate. Alas, that precious commodity is not available. Nor wise.

For to miss the opportunity to engage in the deep awakening is not advisable. We are not meant to sit on the sidelines and to not participate in our light-working purpose. We are meant to open ourselves to receive all that is divinely guided for us and to reap the knowledge that sparkles in view. To blind ourselves to what we know, deep within our hearts, is to disable our ascension and impede the progress meant to help ourselves and others on this plane.

When The Messages Come

When knowledge, wisdom and messages come through me while I’m talking with someone, they continue to sometimes bombard me to be said aloud and delivered to the person to whom the message pertains. I often think of that saying “don’t shoot the messenger” and try to couch the delivery with some kind words in order to make the message more palatable and easier to accept.

But that doesn’t always happen for sometimes the message is blunt, to the point and not very easy to say let alone hear when you’re the receiver. So far, I’ve been lucky in that those who get a message have been grateful for the message even when it wasn’t easy to hear.

Yesterday the winds were wild here and I was feeling very out of sorts and uncentered. It was as if my body were vibrating constantly influx without being able to ground myself. I wasn’t able to focus well and spent most of the day listless.

Finally towards afternoon I went outside as the winds had died down a bit and I felt the vibrations ease out of my body. Whether it was being outside, putting my feet on the ground or the winds or whatever was flying around and making it difficult for me, it released me. I felt back to normal which felt good. Afterwards I was able to channel to a friend (not that I was planning on it) but they began working through me to help her with her new year’s list of intentions.

I am grateful that today she told me that she had thought about the message she received yesterday through me and was able to understand better after processing the information. I am wary sometimes when I deliver messages that are blunt and feel overly strong because I never want to hurt anyone’s feelings. The intention of the messages is always to help and not to hurt, but they seem to deliver them bluntly to make the point when I always think that subtle nudging would work just fine. But when I start with gentleness and that is not what they want or how they want it delivered, it feels like the message just gets louder in my head until I have to deliver it as demanded.

I am only a conduit and yet, I am grateful for the ability.

Last Full Moon of 2020

The full moon has been growing nightly and finally, it is here. The full cancer moon is complete today and stays with us December 29-30. I am excited for this evening when I can go outside and see the moon in its glory. I hope it is a clear night.

It has been a long year indeed, this 2020. Often I have thought of it in terms of hindsight being 2020 for many realizations have occurred in my life this year. Many releases from the past and even the present day have happened and while perhaps I was not ready for them, my inner Knowing was. It is not by chance that I feel lighter since releasing.

Releasing is not the same as surrendering. Releasing allows the individual the power of choice to let go which is different from surrendering. Surrendering is a release, but in a different way. Perhaps it’s just my understanding. However, for me, there’s a subtle difference. Do you feel it too?

I have been writing today. Releasing all that I have held onto and clearing space in my mind, heart and body for the full moon and ending of 2020. With all endings come a new beginning which I look forward to, but I also have the feeling that I need to finish 2020 in a respectful way.

Cancer Moon:

Leave the heavy baggage of the past. Restore and renew under this final full moon.