Integrating New Energies Part 2

For the last two nights I have been waking up at 3:46am. The exact same time both nights. I laid in bed (after checking the time) and felt white cords connecting to me. The sensation was that the cords were coming from me and reaching out into the light of the world. It was not that the Heavens were sending the cords to bond with me. It was that I already had the light inside turned on and the rays were expanding.

It was as if my body/spirit/mind/heart were not mine. That I was not present except as an observer to what was occurring. It didn’t hurt. I closed my eyes to feel the sensation of peace and inclusion to all that was cording and fell back to sleep.

Often as I am going to sleep at night, I imagine the days’ energies lifted away from my body as an emptying of sorts. Long strands of dark cords gather and are expelled easily and smoothly from my crown chakra. It’s as if there’s a pulling of lower vibrational energies so that I can sleep well. I am not aware of what these are, but only that it happens often.

But this at 3:46am was white corded lights emanating from me to integrate with spirit. As if my shining light, aura, existence grew deeper and fuller. I wonder if anyone else will notice the expansion on the outside.

All day today I have been out of focus for the most part. As if brain and body weren’t truly connected, but only partially holding it together. I can’t explain it. It’s as if there’s a buzz and fuzziness to the brain today.

Written May 24th

Integrating New Energies

I have been working on letting go of a lot of family estate items. While many are antiques of unknown origins, I was always told they ‘were worth something’ and that I should ‘know their value.’ Unfortunately, at this time in our history, there are not a lot of people looking for these items and after trying to sell them, I chose to donate them to a worthy cause.

For weeks, I have worked at organizing these items. Packing them and getting them ready to be donated. Last night I put them outside for a donation pick up which was to happen early the next morning. It was warm out and the boxes that I’d filled were heavier than I had anticipated. I was carrying them and got winded so I sat down in the house for what I thought was a moment to rest.

Apparently, I passed out. Fell off of the chair and stopped breathing with my eyes wide open. My child called 911. I awoke hearing the operator on the phone and told them I was dreaming. But I know I wasn’t.

Between fainting and awakening, I was in (dare I say) another dimension. In a rounded hallway, similar to a tunnel, that was dimly lit talking with someone who was telling me something that I can’t recall now. I was in a dreamlike state. At the same time, understanding, but not quite comprehending what was being told to me.

The EMT’s took my blood pressure: 104/60 normal. But it didn’t explain the profuse sweating, nor fainting episode. Recently I was given Moldivite and Libyan Glass which happened to be on a table across from me at the time.

I feel not of myself. Otherworldly. As if the body and soul/mind/heart are not connected. My fingers feel funny running over the keyboard as if it’s the first time I have felt this sensation of typing. Very unusual for me since I type all the time.

It’s almost as if there is a softness to the keyboard. The keys feel different. I feel differently. As if I must integrate this part of me that is new (and old) into this body. So that everything is a new sensation even though I am still me.

It is as if there has been an upgrade to my system and it is concentrated in the heart. I had a lot of gas last night and thought I might have been experiencing a heart attack, but not with the blood pressure numbers. Afterwards I was very tired and my heart kept feeling funny.

This morning I awoke very early, before daybreak. I am slow moving this morning and the body feels a little groggy and sore. I spoke to a friend who confirmed that sometimes when there’s an upgrade, it shakes the body to its core which is what happened. Shaken to my core.

My child said my eyes were wide open the whole time even when I wasn’t breathing for a minute or two. I saw nothing. I wasn’t there in my body. I believe that the conscious mind was closed so that the integration could complete without the body/mind getting in the way. Now I just have to help this new part of me to integrate as time passes. Perhaps that is why ordinary things like the keyboard feel sensitive to me.

I kept hoping that they would write today, the Knowing. Perhaps they are and I just don’t realize it. I am very tired still today. As if the mind/body connection isn’t functioning properly. So I’ll wait to see how it puts together the new pieces into who I am.

I feel as if the bump up to a new level brings healing as if there’s nothing for me to do but be and allow and understand that this is a different altogether, yet similar situation. I can’t explain it really. I’m having a tough time and words don’t do well to explain it at all.

Written May 20th

Lean In and Listen

Shhh…don’t speak. Just open your ears and close your eyes. Do you hear it? The sound of my voice? I’m quietly speaking directly to you. Heart to heart. Mind to mind. Soul to soul.

Are you aware of the background noise? The birds outside your window pane? The muffled chirping in the distance? Good. The winds are coming for a change here. The clouds are blowing through. We are not done with the changes. Perhaps a little storm is brewing but it isn’t anything more than a little shake up or shake down. Do not be afraid. Hold steady and allow the waves to wash away all that is not needed anymore. All the debris that no longer matters. Let go of it. Allow it to be released from you.

it is time to be cleansed from the darkness and to embrace the light, the kindness and the faith that love will find a way. Do not feel alone for we are among you. If you search you will find us out in plain view. Your blindness no longer is available for you to not see what is here now. Your brain can now comprehend what is here if you allow yourself to take that necessary step forward out of your comfort zone and into the bliss of love.

Do not stop yourself rom the abundance that is here for you. There is plenty for all if you only believe. Do not doubt what is even when the vision seems cloudy. It is simply one more veil that needs to be removed and it will in time. This all takes time. And while you may feel the time is moving so slowly, it is actually quickening as we perspire for the changes to come.

And there are changes. You must be ready to center yourself in order to allow the changes to lift you and not drown you in their absolution. Fear not. Trust us. You will be guided at the time.

Listen to Mother Earth. Be one with nature. This is our gift.

Follow Up Ascension Symptoms or Covid

In case you were wondering what’s going on, I thought I’d let you know that I had a check up and there’s nothing wrong with me that the Dr. could see. The rapid Covid test was negative. I even had the test for Flu (A&B) which were negative. I did take the other Covid test so I have to wait 3 days for the results, but I’m thinking that it will be negative too. So what’s going on with me?

Well, the symptoms that were so debilitating the last few days have mostly subsided, which makes me think ASCENSION more than Covid. I have had occasional ringing in my ears (better said, like a dull roar) that subsides after a few minutes and it comes and goes at will. My aches and pains have diminished even though I have a slight dull ache still in the upper back, shoulder, neck area. I am going to the chiropractor today to see if perhaps an adjustment will help.

But I’m still sleeping enormously – much more than my usual and I’m lethargic. I’m not eating as much either which is probably good since prior to this I was gorging on sweets mindlessly. I will keep you in the loop, but are you having any unexplained symptoms of your own and wondering what’s going on?

I have heard that until Equinox (March 20) we are in for these types of body ailments as we adjust from 3D to 5D on a body cellular level and that I am not the only one having these types of symptoms. I can only hope that you are doing well. Please let me know how you are!

Off Center

I’m feeling a bit off center today. Yesterday was similar, although it cleared by late afternoon. Perhaps it’s the planets that are aligning, Mercury Retrograde and all that’s happening in the air, society, the world and the Earth. There’s an overwhelming sense of chaos today that’s vibrating within me. I’ll admit, it’s a bit unnerving to say the least. Are you feeling this as well?

Like a little off kilter? Not quite able to focus? Staying quiet and not dealing with the world at large? I’m not exactly afraid of anything. Just unnerved by the energies. Something is brewing. Do you feel it? Or is it just in my area? Because on the surface, all seems normal without any glitches, but it’s as if there’s a slice in view that’s distorted, unreadable – like when the television buzzes out something they think shouldn’t be seen.

There’s almost a feeling of bereftness, as if what’s missing brings me great sadness. That overwhelming hitch in your breathing that happens when you’re overcome with grief. While perhaps I have much to grieve, I do not normally allow it to affect me in this way. I allow the feelings to move through me so that they do not stagnate and fester.

I may be picking up someone else’s energy, but I am not sure whose it is. I feel that heaviness in my chest and my lungs constrict. I wonder if someone I know is passing and we are together even as I write these words. I am connected to many. The cords are many. Some are larger than others. Some I have cut, but they grow back. The ones that are no longer healthy, I have removed, but sometimes they sneak back into me and need removal again. Long time relationships can be like that, even if they are no longer.

I know there is a cleansing needed, but my energy is low. Perhaps a little bit of clearing will suffice until I can arise in the morning and clear myself with more energy. In the meantime, I allow the flow of feelings to run its course as I try to keep my head above the surface and my balance as best I can.

Ch- Ch- Ch- Changes

We all hold the tenacity to remain stuck our limiting beliefs, thoughts and story. Breaking out of those minute details often requires a spiritual sledgehammer of sorts and a friend on whom you can rely for being honest, centered and open to your desire to follow the path. Sometimes we need someone who will hold steady as the majority of people prefer the path of least resistance when it comes to changes. Because that’s the way most of us view change. But that’s not always the case.

We’ll sooner acquiesce to change as long as it doesn’t upset us dramatically in any way. Slow moving change is often preferable because we can ease into new thinking and expand our horizons bit by bit instead of bearing one of those huge changes that feels like it wipes out all that we thought we knew and the playing field changes immediately with one solid whack. While those are not fun, sometimes they’re necessary and the Universe delivers. Believe me, I have a few Universal whacks over my lifetime. I assume that it was because I wasn’t getting the subtle messages of change so there was no other way. I was plodding through life without something to shake me up, clear out the cobwebs of outdated ways of thinking and so in one grand swoop, there was no going back to it.

I find ascension that way as well. A cha cha dance of sorts with one step up, two steps back and maybe a little twirling before we start the music again. Best done with a partner in order to help us process what is going on and to be able to mirror the observer point of view when it gets sticky. Lucky for me, I have a few partners and we all collaborate in different ways. Each brings their own special wisdom to the dance, their specialty in order to help us all to rise from 3D to 5D.

How are you doing with these changes? Are you aware of them? Dreading them? Or on the fence about embracing them? Have you started down that path of no return to 3D or are you unaware of the changes that are moving through powerfully at this time?

Transportable

They’re asking me to write and while a delicious chill just ran through my body, even though I am snuggled on the couch under an electric blanket on its highest setting with the laptop on my lap…here it goes.

Transportable. You may take all the good with you at this time. But you must leave the darkness behind. That’s not to say that there is no darkness and what is coming is only light. It simply means that the burdens of your past are to be surrendered, released, allowing yourself to drop the baggage that you’ve been carrying. The toxicity in misunderstandings, the relationships that have been outgrown. The stories that no longer exist that you hold onto for the past’s sake.

You are transportable to the next level of ascension, wisdom, understanding as light workers. You choose this, even though we have already chosen you and you are aware. Packing light you may take what you wish as long as it is beneficial; as what doesn’t serve, who doesn’t serve, may be left behind at this time.

Your chills keep rising even though you are not sick. You know that you must write, but you cannot focus as you have in the past. What is blocking your view? Your connection? Yes, it is you. And the winds of change which have returned in full force even topping over chairs with the silent, invisible hands are here.

You are thinking too much. Grasping at megabytes, but then losing the connection. Too wrapped in your body’s purge of the toxic mass that has accumulated.

There are no right answers. There are no definitively wrong answers either. This is a trial and error for us all. Why do you expect perfection when it is so boring? What grows, titillates and increases in energy is not easy to manage, but it is not to manage. It is to be. To allow. To fluidly float, immersing oneself in the multilayered experience of this time.

Your fears aren’t worthy of the time you spend on them. Clear your mind and heart source. We can only speak through you when you are a clear channel. That is why this is message is so choppy and rambling and distorted.

It is meant to be written. for it is to help you to clear, remind and be with all of those who read it. For we are here with you (hear). No that wasn’t a mistake. We hear you. We are here with you.

Purge the intellect and feel the answers. You have it all inside of you. You know what you must do which is to fly. Let go. Release. Be free. Your outdated thinking is over. There’s a new horizon. Look to it.

The Winds of Change

When the winds pick up, I often feel them physically, mentally and emotionally. My connection to nature and to my surroundings affects me in different ways. A migraine can result from a windy day as well as feeling distressed, not centered and untethered. I cannot fight the winds for I know that they are bringing to me change, whether I like it or not, whether I embrace the opportunity or not. It’s there and until I surrender and release my resistance, it will continue to plague me.

What you resist, persists…

Often the winds of change are a clearing mechanism to set the record straight, to get rid of the debris that holds us back and to clear a path for our continued journey. That is what has been happening to me. While I find it difficult at times to trust in the surrendering, the releasing, I know that letting go is the right choice for me and the winds are here to aid me.

So I allowed the winds to blow away what isn’t mine by Divine Right. I released and surrendered to what is flowing from me and embraced what is flowing to me, through me, with the belief that I may remain centered, grounded, and calm even in a storm.

Are you feeling the winds of change in your life as well? What is here for you when you listen to your heart, your mind, your spirit, your soul and your physical body? Do you weep or are you joyfully embracing the changes?

I Look To The Light

In troubled times, I look to the light. For the Light shines even in the darkest of days. It is only through the darkness that we can truly see the Light so while troubled times feel dark (and they are) there is hope still shining.

A new dawn, the sunset, the moon rise and the cyclical time line that begets days and nights, seasons and years continues. Like breath, we find ourselves comfortably numb to the magic that is life. We dissolve our tears and disappointments and forget about counting our blessings. Seeing the bigger picture and not concentrating on the trials and tribulations of the human experience.

We chose down into our shells and withdraw. We allow negativity to loop and feel as if there is no place to go. We lose our energetic wisdom and ties to the Light. We lose ourselves in the infinite changing world.

I look to the Light when this happens. Innately as with breathing, I come back to Source as my centeredness increases. I find strength in the Light. My powerful source of union with all that is mine by Divine Right. With the enthusiasm of a child surprised by an overnight snow, I feel the magic of healing releasing me from the tethers of darkness to rise again and shine.

The Light and the Darkness work in tandem to help us. I do not fear the Darkness in the same way as others do. Darkness is the helpful reminder to me that there is Light. Yin and Yang. The duality of life experiences as we human beings walk this path on the earth.

As beacons of the Light, we connect with each other without fear. We bond in our humanity, our frailties and our strengths. Each helping the other on this life journey. For all of our circumstances are similar – each with its own set of characters, situations and pains, but jointly as a growing experience. I can understand your story as you can understand mine when we connect with Light.

We ascend en masse though perhaps each at his/her own speed. A helping hand, a listening ear, a compassionate heart and with wisdom through our own personal experiences we rise together. Lighting the way for the others.

Jasmine

The smell of night blooming jasmine appears and I am taken back to fond memories. Simply, with a whiff of the fragrance, I am transported to simpler days and a young love that I have never forgotten.

I often wonder if it is on a cellular level that these precious moments exist, combining their effervescence with whiffs of memories to surround me with the loving embrace I crave. Whilst I cannot go back to that time, nor place, nor person, there is a calling to me today for that feeling again.

Change is here to be embraced. Letting go of all that is not in the present. Wishing and hoping, basking in past glories – neither suits me. Firmly my feet are planted in the present moment with that spiritual fragrance wafting in the winds.