Fresh Start

New month. A recent Full Blood Moon. Between Eclipses. Moving from 3D to 5D and awakening to the world. Veil is thin for me. Sleep muddled with dreams that I can’t remember in the morning. Working to stay centered. even when all around me is chaos.

Allowing feelings to flow, to be released into the ether so that what triggers me holds less power. Confusion reigns even though on the surface, things haven’t changed. But there’s that feeling of the possibility that there is change coming in a great tsunami. Washing away all that we know and leaving us to start again.

Begin again. Open to possibility. Open to a fresh start while not knowing where this path leads. Walking carefully through the detritus of what once was and seeing beyond the past, in the present moment.

Allowing. Releasing. Centered and grounded. Holding steady by staying afloat.

Traditionally June is about Love. Springtime. Junos the Goddess of women, family, marriage, children, childbirth and also known as Hera (in Greece). She was married to Zeus (Jupiter) and also one of the Twelve Olympians. That’s why June was considered lucky for marriage because it was believed if one married in June, the pair would receive Junos’ blessing.

So is Love in the air in the month of June? I guess we’ll find out as the month unfolds.

Integrating New Energies Part 2

For the last two nights I have been waking up at 3:46am. The exact same time both nights. I laid in bed (after checking the time) and felt white cords connecting to me. The sensation was that the cords were coming from me and reaching out into the light of the world. It was not that the Heavens were sending the cords to bond with me. It was that I already had the light inside turned on and the rays were expanding.

It was as if my body/spirit/mind/heart were not mine. That I was not present except as an observer to what was occurring. It didn’t hurt. I closed my eyes to feel the sensation of peace and inclusion to all that was cording and fell back to sleep.

Often as I am going to sleep at night, I imagine the days’ energies lifted away from my body as an emptying of sorts. Long strands of dark cords gather and are expelled easily and smoothly from my crown chakra. It’s as if there’s a pulling of lower vibrational energies so that I can sleep well. I am not aware of what these are, but only that it happens often.

But this at 3:46am was white corded lights emanating from me to integrate with spirit. As if my shining light, aura, existence grew deeper and fuller. I wonder if anyone else will notice the expansion on the outside.

All day today I have been out of focus for the most part. As if brain and body weren’t truly connected, but only partially holding it together. I can’t explain it. It’s as if there’s a buzz and fuzziness to the brain today.

Written May 24th

Integrating New Energies

I have been working on letting go of a lot of family estate items. While many are antiques of unknown origins, I was always told they ‘were worth something’ and that I should ‘know their value.’ Unfortunately, at this time in our history, there are not a lot of people looking for these items and after trying to sell them, I chose to donate them to a worthy cause.

For weeks, I have worked at organizing these items. Packing them and getting them ready to be donated. Last night I put them outside for a donation pick up which was to happen early the next morning. It was warm out and the boxes that I’d filled were heavier than I had anticipated. I was carrying them and got winded so I sat down in the house for what I thought was a moment to rest.

Apparently, I passed out. Fell off of the chair and stopped breathing with my eyes wide open. My child called 911. I awoke hearing the operator on the phone and told them I was dreaming. But I know I wasn’t.

Between fainting and awakening, I was in (dare I say) another dimension. In a rounded hallway, similar to a tunnel, that was dimly lit talking with someone who was telling me something that I can’t recall now. I was in a dreamlike state. At the same time, understanding, but not quite comprehending what was being told to me.

The EMT’s took my blood pressure: 104/60 normal. But it didn’t explain the profuse sweating, nor fainting episode. Recently I was given Moldivite and Libyan Glass which happened to be on a table across from me at the time.

I feel not of myself. Otherworldly. As if the body and soul/mind/heart are not connected. My fingers feel funny running over the keyboard as if it’s the first time I have felt this sensation of typing. Very unusual for me since I type all the time.

It’s almost as if there is a softness to the keyboard. The keys feel different. I feel differently. As if I must integrate this part of me that is new (and old) into this body. So that everything is a new sensation even though I am still me.

It is as if there has been an upgrade to my system and it is concentrated in the heart. I had a lot of gas last night and thought I might have been experiencing a heart attack, but not with the blood pressure numbers. Afterwards I was very tired and my heart kept feeling funny.

This morning I awoke very early, before daybreak. I am slow moving this morning and the body feels a little groggy and sore. I spoke to a friend who confirmed that sometimes when there’s an upgrade, it shakes the body to its core which is what happened. Shaken to my core.

My child said my eyes were wide open the whole time even when I wasn’t breathing for a minute or two. I saw nothing. I wasn’t there in my body. I believe that the conscious mind was closed so that the integration could complete without the body/mind getting in the way. Now I just have to help this new part of me to integrate as time passes. Perhaps that is why ordinary things like the keyboard feel sensitive to me.

I kept hoping that they would write today, the Knowing. Perhaps they are and I just don’t realize it. I am very tired still today. As if the mind/body connection isn’t functioning properly. So I’ll wait to see how it puts together the new pieces into who I am.

I feel as if the bump up to a new level brings healing as if there’s nothing for me to do but be and allow and understand that this is a different altogether, yet similar situation. I can’t explain it really. I’m having a tough time and words don’t do well to explain it at all.

Written May 20th

Follow Up Ascension Symptoms or Covid

In case you were wondering what’s going on, I thought I’d let you know that I had a check up and there’s nothing wrong with me that the Dr. could see. The rapid Covid test was negative. I even had the test for Flu (A&B) which were negative. I did take the other Covid test so I have to wait 3 days for the results, but I’m thinking that it will be negative too. So what’s going on with me?

Well, the symptoms that were so debilitating the last few days have mostly subsided, which makes me think ASCENSION more than Covid. I have had occasional ringing in my ears (better said, like a dull roar) that subsides after a few minutes and it comes and goes at will. My aches and pains have diminished even though I have a slight dull ache still in the upper back, shoulder, neck area. I am going to the chiropractor today to see if perhaps an adjustment will help.

But I’m still sleeping enormously – much more than my usual and I’m lethargic. I’m not eating as much either which is probably good since prior to this I was gorging on sweets mindlessly. I will keep you in the loop, but are you having any unexplained symptoms of your own and wondering what’s going on?

I have heard that until Equinox (March 20) we are in for these types of body ailments as we adjust from 3D to 5D on a body cellular level and that I am not the only one having these types of symptoms. I can only hope that you are doing well. Please let me know how you are!

Ascension Symptoms or Covid?

Leading up to yesterday I’ve been experiencing strange symptoms which made no sense to me. For the last two weeks, I’ve had occasional ringing in my ears which came and went at will. Utter lethargy which came on suddenly, accompanied by the need to sleep and to sleep longer periods of time than my usual. A bit of upset tummy and loose bowels (sorry – TMI) for the last few days which came and went at will. It’s not like I ate something that didn’t agree with me, but simply my body had been taken over to release some unpleasantness. Waking up between 2-5am and remembering my dreams which were interesting to say the least. Waking one night repeatedly and each time knowing I had been in a different bed from a different time period in my life. One night waking up holding hands with someone whom I still don’t know who it was even though I asked. I had thought it were my father (who’s passed), but I never received confirmation. Believe me, if it had been my dad, he would have been happy to let me know it was him! Waking up with songs in my head and lyrics that when I looked them up, made complete sense to me because I’d asked for a sign.

However, yesterday, I suddenly began to have symptoms which were concerning. My shoulder area all the way up the back of my neck and head were constricted and tight as if they were in a vice. I was congested in my head and had a migraine headache, but in the back of my head and not in the usual place in front. I had chills that no amount of blankets could change. Not outwardly shaking chills, but deeply felt chills. Fatigued and achy throughout my body. Strangely, the aches moved from the left side under the ribcage to the right and throughout the upper body region. The upper back, neck and head area were so painful and that never let up. An occasional cough was here too, but nothing that cleared anything. My lungs felt constricted, but only the top parts, and yet I could take a deep breath and hold it for 10 seconds and release without difficulty which is good. No fever either.

I went to bed quite early and fell asleep. I remember waking up around 2am for a bit and then falling back to sleep. I don’t remember any of my dreams, nor was there a song in my head this morning.

When I awoke this morning, I was lethargic, but I pushed through the morning. Now I’m sitting here writing to you. The back of my head/neck/shoulder area is still tight, but the headache has subsided. Overall the fatigue is still here, but lessened. I still have my taste and smell, although the sense of smell is diminished, but then my nose is clogged in a strange way. I can still breathe through both nostrils but there’s a stuffiness that I haven’t had prior to now. When I blow my nose, there’s nothing in the tissue even though I feel the mucus. Sorry to be so detailed. Still without a fever and no more chills.

I have a covid test scheduled for tomorrow, but I’m thinking these are ASCENSION symptoms. Releasing all the 3D debris within the cells and body in order to ascend to 5D. Either way, I’m feeling poorly and beat up. Luckily I can relax today and take it easy.

How are you feeling? Does this sound like Ascension to you or Covid?

The Winds of Change

When the winds pick up, I often feel them physically, mentally and emotionally. My connection to nature and to my surroundings affects me in different ways. A migraine can result from a windy day as well as feeling distressed, not centered and untethered. I cannot fight the winds for I know that they are bringing to me change, whether I like it or not, whether I embrace the opportunity or not. It’s there and until I surrender and release my resistance, it will continue to plague me.

What you resist, persists…

Often the winds of change are a clearing mechanism to set the record straight, to get rid of the debris that holds us back and to clear a path for our continued journey. That is what has been happening to me. While I find it difficult at times to trust in the surrendering, the releasing, I know that letting go is the right choice for me and the winds are here to aid me.

So I allowed the winds to blow away what isn’t mine by Divine Right. I released and surrendered to what is flowing from me and embraced what is flowing to me, through me, with the belief that I may remain centered, grounded, and calm even in a storm.

Are you feeling the winds of change in your life as well? What is here for you when you listen to your heart, your mind, your spirit, your soul and your physical body? Do you weep or are you joyfully embracing the changes?

Jasmine

The smell of night blooming jasmine appears and I am taken back to fond memories. Simply, with a whiff of the fragrance, I am transported to simpler days and a young love that I have never forgotten.

I often wonder if it is on a cellular level that these precious moments exist, combining their effervescence with whiffs of memories to surround me with the loving embrace I crave. Whilst I cannot go back to that time, nor place, nor person, there is a calling to me today for that feeling again.

Change is here to be embraced. Letting go of all that is not in the present. Wishing and hoping, basking in past glories – neither suits me. Firmly my feet are planted in the present moment with that spiritual fragrance wafting in the winds.

The Refinishing

I awoke with a sadness deep in my soul. A hitch in my breathing normally that comes when I suppress a sob. Have you been feeling the energetic changes as well? As if we are being stripped of the past, the heartsick moments that have stuck like tar on our bones to be refinished like a fine antique, back to the glory which is ours inherently.

But it comes at a price, this stripping of the darkness, the aging, the past sadness and shame. It refinishes us to a beautiful radiance from which we can never return. I have never been one that is good with goodbyes even when I know that an ending is a new beginning.

While we move from 3D to 4D to 5D, the refinishing process is in full tilt. Chaos in dismembering of fragments of low vibrations are being cleared and we are called upon to elevate our spirits even when many of us would prefer to hunker down in our bubbles to rest and have the time to rejuvenate. Alas, that precious commodity is not available. Nor wise.

For to miss the opportunity to engage in the deep awakening is not advisable. We are not meant to sit on the sidelines and to not participate in our light-working purpose. We are meant to open ourselves to receive all that is divinely guided for us and to reap the knowledge that sparkles in view. To blind ourselves to what we know, deep within our hearts, is to disable our ascension and impede the progress meant to help ourselves and others on this plane.

2021 CONNECTIONS

Happy 2021! I feel affirmations for 2021 bubbling up inside of me. There’s an enthusiasm that’s percolating within me. An energy of positivity and an increase in intuitiveness. My body feels at peace, but also excited with anticipation of how this year ahead will unfold. So I have to ask myself: How do I want 2021 to be for me? While I like to allow life to unfold, I am also well-aware that I need to be present and to work with what I am given. Strive for what I feel is important and help others along the way.

I have friends who choose a word for the coming year which encompasses the year for them. Do you do the same? Can you think of one that would work for you?

Mine is CONNECTIONS…for I believe that works for me in a myriad of ways.

Feel free to share your word for 2021 or the image or direction in which you feel intuitively is yours. I can’t wait to read them! Come join me on this journey – EVOLUTION of REMEMBERING ME! This is YOUR REMEVOLUTION!!!

Last Full Moon of 2020

The full moon has been growing nightly and finally, it is here. The full cancer moon is complete today and stays with us December 29-30. I am excited for this evening when I can go outside and see the moon in its glory. I hope it is a clear night.

It has been a long year indeed, this 2020. Often I have thought of it in terms of hindsight being 2020 for many realizations have occurred in my life this year. Many releases from the past and even the present day have happened and while perhaps I was not ready for them, my inner Knowing was. It is not by chance that I feel lighter since releasing.

Releasing is not the same as surrendering. Releasing allows the individual the power of choice to let go which is different from surrendering. Surrendering is a release, but in a different way. Perhaps it’s just my understanding. However, for me, there’s a subtle difference. Do you feel it too?

I have been writing today. Releasing all that I have held onto and clearing space in my mind, heart and body for the full moon and ending of 2020. With all endings come a new beginning which I look forward to, but I also have the feeling that I need to finish 2020 in a respectful way.

Cancer Moon:

Leave the heavy baggage of the past. Restore and renew under this final full moon.