How I Change

I met for coffee outside with a good friend recently. It was really cold outside, so we bundled up and sat out on the patio sipping hot coffee and actually enjoying the winter weather. We talked for a long time, each of us loving being outside with nature. The hawk made his appearance as he usually does when she comes over to visit. While I see the hawk often, he catches my eye more and more often when she’s here. I have to look up the spiritual wisdom of hawk. A post for another day.

But as it happens with us often, we began sharing the Woo Woo updates that are happening to us. Each of us had similar physical and mental symptoms as I’ve talked about in prior posts. Both of us had touches of what we worried were the beginnings of the dreaded Covid, but much to our delight and relief, we believe they were Ascension Symptoms because as fast as they came on, they were released.

Spiritual downloads are like that in a way. The physical body changes as the energies move through us. We are given that surge which can feel like extreme exhaustion or fogginess mentally as whatever updates are received. It sounds like a computer update, doesn’t it? But that’s what I am understanding. We are spiritually being updated in order to move from 3D to 5D, each in our own way and on our own divine timing.

While we were talking outside, I felt the Knowing as she was explaining a situation to me. I do remember looking at her and listening as the chatter began in my mind. The Knowing as I refer to it was talking to me at the same time that she was. When she stopped talking, I began to tell her what I heard/know. I channeled a message to her that she needed to know. When we were done and had moved beyond that part of the conversation, she told me how I change.

Remember how I said this friend told me when she knew I was getting a Knowing message? She had said I change physically, but I hadn’t asked how. Today she told me that while she was talking she observed my face go blank and my eyes almost seemed to cross. I laughed aloud. Yikes! I must seem to look very odd! But she said she recognized the look and knew it was the Knowing. And it was.

While I’m not thrilled that I must look a mess when it happens, I am grateful for the knowledge. She is very spiritual herself so it is a comfort to know that she recognizes that it’s happening to me. I am also grateful that when I tell her the message I’ve received, even when it may be difficult to deliver, that she understands it is from a higher realm.

When I am in the zone of Knowing, I feel almost above my body if that makes sense. Additionally when I tag a post as being channelled, please know that it is the Knowing that takes over the keyboard and writes through me to you. More and more I am finding that it is happening with me and I feel as if I am able to help others through this experience.

Transportable

They’re asking me to write and while a delicious chill just ran through my body, even though I am snuggled on the couch under an electric blanket on its highest setting with the laptop on my lap…here it goes.

Transportable. You may take all the good with you at this time. But you must leave the darkness behind. That’s not to say that there is no darkness and what is coming is only light. It simply means that the burdens of your past are to be surrendered, released, allowing yourself to drop the baggage that you’ve been carrying. The toxicity in misunderstandings, the relationships that have been outgrown. The stories that no longer exist that you hold onto for the past’s sake.

You are transportable to the next level of ascension, wisdom, understanding as light workers. You choose this, even though we have already chosen you and you are aware. Packing light you may take what you wish as long as it is beneficial; as what doesn’t serve, who doesn’t serve, may be left behind at this time.

Your chills keep rising even though you are not sick. You know that you must write, but you cannot focus as you have in the past. What is blocking your view? Your connection? Yes, it is you. And the winds of change which have returned in full force even topping over chairs with the silent, invisible hands are here.

You are thinking too much. Grasping at megabytes, but then losing the connection. Too wrapped in your body’s purge of the toxic mass that has accumulated.

There are no right answers. There are no definitively wrong answers either. This is a trial and error for us all. Why do you expect perfection when it is so boring? What grows, titillates and increases in energy is not easy to manage, but it is not to manage. It is to be. To allow. To fluidly float, immersing oneself in the multilayered experience of this time.

Your fears aren’t worthy of the time you spend on them. Clear your mind and heart source. We can only speak through you when you are a clear channel. That is why this is message is so choppy and rambling and distorted.

It is meant to be written. for it is to help you to clear, remind and be with all of those who read it. For we are here with you (hear). No that wasn’t a mistake. We hear you. We are here with you.

Purge the intellect and feel the answers. You have it all inside of you. You know what you must do which is to fly. Let go. Release. Be free. Your outdated thinking is over. There’s a new horizon. Look to it.

Peripheral Visions

I have always been able to see out of the corner of my eyes. Growing up in our old 100+ year old home, I saw figures of people. My parents thought I was strange and as I’ve mentioned before, I stopped telling them and tried to not share that part of me because it wasn’t understood. It seemed that I lost it for a bit and continued on with the human experience of life. The lessons, the lower vibrations and the day to day stuff that can consume us.

About eight years ago the figures began returning. In my peripheral vision I would see something move, a figure, but when I turned my head it would be gone. There were various ones that I observed. Around the time that my father passed, there was a small white one that would peer around the corner in my kitchen. At that same time there would be little things that were moved in the home. It was as if this one was mischievous, but not meaning any harm. Just wanting to be noticed and acknowledged. Playing tricks as it were until I began to talk with it and ask it to return what it had hidden…and it did. I enjoyed that figure, but it didn’t stay. I don’t know what happened to it, but after awhile, I didn’t see it anymore.

A few years later, my life changed again and with that change, I began seeing the figures again in my peripheral vision. However, these were similar to my childhood ones – some not friendly and others were. The unfriendly ones concerned me.

One in particular was big and dark and I got a menacing feeling from that one. It repeated its appearances until I told it to leave. My kids even had experiences with that one as well. I never even knew they had the gift that I had as we had never discussed it. Imagine my surprise when they sat me to down to tell me what they’d been seeing. It was a great confirmation for me that it wasn’t just my imagination, but that I/we were seeing someone/something.

Our cats also knew they were there. Staring intently and sometimes even abruptly meowing a warning to us or getting up and running away from it. Cats see and feel more than we do. Have you heard that as well?

Do you ‘see’ spirits? Do you have experiences with seeing something out of the corner of your eye? Or even head on seeing it? I’ve had that as well! What was the sensation you felt when you had that experience?

I Am An Intuitive and I Channel

It has been difficult for me to utter these words aloud to the public because even though many people have called me an intuitive or declared that I have a Knowing, I hesitate to use the word intuitive. Why? I don’t know. But that’s a fairly common word that most people are familiar with so it makes sense to use it. But I’d prefer Knowing…even though it’s only my term for what happens.

Strangely I refer to the Knowing as them (plural they) because it feels right. But is this a ‘them’ as opposed to a ‘he’ or ‘she’ or ‘it’? I don’t know. I don’t even hear their voices as much as telepathically hear (Know) their messages. And woe to me if I don’t deliver them when they are put bluntly or when I try to couch the message to make it a little softer.

Nope, they are having none of that. I refer to them getting louder in my head even though the volume of the message doesn’t increase, except it does. I’m not sure if that makes sense to you. But that’s how it is for me. The message becomes more insistent until it is delivered.

I can also channel their messages to me. I have channeled posts here. What do I mean by that? Well, I get the inspiration to write a post and then my fingers seem to take on a life of their own and type away until they stop. When I read what I have typed, I realize that this isn’t my vocabulary nor sentence structure. It’s channeled from them. While it doesn’t happen often, it does happen and I will continue to share when advised.

Scientifically, we have a part of the brain that is especially prominent in women for creativity and intuition. We all have intuition although we may call it by different names. That ‘sixth sense’ when you feel uncomfortable with a stranger or you get the ‘idea’ that pops into your head to change your routine – ie. your normal driving trip – only to find out later you missed a big pile up on the highway, etc.

Have you ever followed your intuition? You can grow it when you’re ready. You just have to be open to listening to your inner Knowing. It’s all a part of REMEVOLUTION – The Evolution of Remembering Me.

When The Messages Come

When knowledge, wisdom and messages come through me while I’m talking with someone, they continue to sometimes bombard me to be said aloud and delivered to the person to whom the message pertains. I often think of that saying “don’t shoot the messenger” and try to couch the delivery with some kind words in order to make the message more palatable and easier to accept.

But that doesn’t always happen for sometimes the message is blunt, to the point and not very easy to say let alone hear when you’re the receiver. So far, I’ve been lucky in that those who get a message have been grateful for the message even when it wasn’t easy to hear.

Yesterday the winds were wild here and I was feeling very out of sorts and uncentered. It was as if my body were vibrating constantly influx without being able to ground myself. I wasn’t able to focus well and spent most of the day listless.

Finally towards afternoon I went outside as the winds had died down a bit and I felt the vibrations ease out of my body. Whether it was being outside, putting my feet on the ground or the winds or whatever was flying around and making it difficult for me, it released me. I felt back to normal which felt good. Afterwards I was able to channel to a friend (not that I was planning on it) but they began working through me to help her with her new year’s list of intentions.

I am grateful that today she told me that she had thought about the message she received yesterday through me and was able to understand better after processing the information. I am wary sometimes when I deliver messages that are blunt and feel overly strong because I never want to hurt anyone’s feelings. The intention of the messages is always to help and not to hurt, but they seem to deliver them bluntly to make the point when I always think that subtle nudging would work just fine. But when I start with gentleness and that is not what they want or how they want it delivered, it feels like the message just gets louder in my head until I have to deliver it as demanded.

I am only a conduit and yet, I am grateful for the ability.

Last Full Moon of 2020

The full moon has been growing nightly and finally, it is here. The full cancer moon is complete today and stays with us December 29-30. I am excited for this evening when I can go outside and see the moon in its glory. I hope it is a clear night.

It has been a long year indeed, this 2020. Often I have thought of it in terms of hindsight being 2020 for many realizations have occurred in my life this year. Many releases from the past and even the present day have happened and while perhaps I was not ready for them, my inner Knowing was. It is not by chance that I feel lighter since releasing.

Releasing is not the same as surrendering. Releasing allows the individual the power of choice to let go which is different from surrendering. Surrendering is a release, but in a different way. Perhaps it’s just my understanding. However, for me, there’s a subtle difference. Do you feel it too?

I have been writing today. Releasing all that I have held onto and clearing space in my mind, heart and body for the full moon and ending of 2020. With all endings come a new beginning which I look forward to, but I also have the feeling that I need to finish 2020 in a respectful way.

Cancer Moon:

Leave the heavy baggage of the past. Restore and renew under this final full moon.

Cardinal Calls

This is the first Christmas without both of my parents. I awoke early this morning and sat outside on my front porch to have my coffee. It was quiet in the house without anyone but me awake which was fine with me. I like to start my day without distraction.

I begin most mornings with prayer and quiet reflection. I ask for help and direction for the day and usually choose a card to read. Most days I feel the divine purpose for the chosen card which I find helpful.

This morning I was thinking about how my parents aren’t here on this earth anymore and I am alone. While I still feel them spiritually, I was wishing for a hug. I am one who relishes hugs and sadly I was feeling quite bereft. Suddenly two cardinals flew into the tree in front of me. My mind was elsewhere and I hadn’t noticed them until I heard them and my eyes began searching to see who was calling to me. There they were, a pair of cardinals as the ones above (not my photo though as I was too mesmerized). They both landed on the same branch and talked with me.

I knew who it was – my Mom and Dad coming to remind me that they are always with me. Over the years I have had many signs from departed loved ones and I am always so grateful.

Do you believe in signs? Have you had any? What were they? Please share….

Merry Christmas to you and yours….

Hold My Hand

I awaken some mornings with a song in my head. Well, not quite the whole song, but a few lines of the lyrics or sometimes even just the music so that I recognize it. This morning was no exception. I heard “Hold My Hand” which is something I often say to people when they’re going through difficult times.

The song I heard in my head is by Hootie and the Blowfish and is a song I haven’t heard, nor thought about in years. It’s funny how the Knowing works with me. I get clues and outright signs.

Because this morning a friend called me in the early morning hours and told me how I should branch out and help others in the new year because so many are needing support, help and compassion. She told me how I had helped her healing because often I say, “Hold my hand and we’ll walk together” so that she wasn’t alone. I began chuckling to myself and when she was finished talking, I explained how I had heard that song today and then, she had used the exact words. Synchronicity.

I have always said that I can do anything (and I have) when I know a trusted person is holding my hand. While I’d rather physically hold a hand, it’s not possible these days with what’s going on, so we imagine we are holding hands in the spiritual way. That works almost as well.

I have held many hands over the years and walked with them as they navigated this life journey. I have been fortunate myself to have had my hand held by many as well and I feel very blessed.

The lines in the lyrics that I heard this morning were:

Hold my hand
Want you to hold my hand
Hold my hand
I’ll take you to the promised land
Hold my hand
Maybe we can’t change the world but
I wanna love you the best that, the best that I can.

Isn’t life so interesting? I have been smiling ear to ear all morning because I keep hearing the song and I know I’m where I belong.

Reach out if you need a hand to hold. I’m here.

Winter Solstice

It is as if I have been awaiting this moment to shine. Eerily repressed of my own doing and circumstances/people beyond my control. Not to be confused with me controlling others, but simply that they lacked integrity, experience, empathy and were driven to undo me and entangle themselves where they did not belong.

But I am freed and feeling as such today. Whether it’s that Jupiter and Saturn will be visible as the “Christmas Star” as its been called or the fact that I feel freed from the tethers that bound me, I feel joyful today. Do you feel this energy shift as well?

Wide open to receive all that is mine by Divine Right. Open to my precious Knowing and ready to accept whatever plan there is for me. I apprehensively feel renewed to continue my intuitive building and to share it in a safe place such as my blog.

There are a few close friends who are aware of my gifts. We all have them. Some are not aware or perhaps not receptive to them. But with this guiding light today, there is a energetic rising forth coming from my core and I am elated.

While the channeling comes as it wishes, if I receive any messages I will post another blog. In the meantime, I’m sending you love, light and healing today and always.

Thank you for taking the time to read my blog. I am here for you.

Holding Space

It’s amazing to me how my life has changed so much and yet, stayed the same, but with a renewed openness. I am finding myself again and releasing all that cluttered my life previously. I am not consumed by that which I am not able to control. I know certain things. When I allow my openness to embrace itself, my ability to know how to help in a situation increases one hundred fold. While I still hold sacred space for those with whom I have a bumpy relationship, it no longer pains me as it once did. I have surrendered to what is without making it about me. What you think of me is your business and not my own.

I have uncovered the ability to speak the truth without fear. When speaking with others, I hold space for them, for myself and for us to converse and to communicate. My knowing of what is part of our sphere comes more clearly now, although not always. I am a work in progress. But I can see beyond what is in front of me more and more. With that, I feel the Remevolution – The Evolution of Remembering Me.

I am holding space for myself as well. Sacred space in which I can learn, grow and be my authentic self. I can write without censorship. I can share my journey. I am free to explore these gifts that I have always somehow known I had, but I wasn’t able to feel comfortable sharing them.

I think I can now and I am growing more thrilled each passing day. I am enjoying what is happening with me spiritually. I am understanding more of my Divine Purpose here. I am practicing my gifts again. I want to better myself and to learn more about me. I want to challenge myself again as I did when I was younger and had my knowing about the ringing of the telephone and who the caller was.

In your life are you noticing your gifts again too?