Waiting On Emergence

A holding pattern for sure. Waiting in anticipation for something to arrive. Or perhaps better said, someone to arrive – me! I’ve had a difficult few weeks just existing, nothing more, nothing less. I’ve stopped my daily routine and simply exist as I heal. Not focused and unable to do more than ‘be’ for the time being. I liken it to the final weeks before a chick cracks the egg open. Nothing much going on, but increasing in size as we wait on emergence.

My hope, my goal, my intention is to emerge with more understanding, more grace and unity to this world, or better said, to the world to which I belong, which isn’t necessarily here. But so far I am in this constant fragile state of non-being. Without paddle nor energy, here I am, biding away the time without counting the hours because it doesn’t matter. Nothing really matters and it’s not me.

The apathy is difficult to navigate even though there’s nothing to navigate since my life is overflowing with apathy. Occasionally there are blips of connections, but they are few and far between. It’s as if there isn’t enough energy for the two tabs to connect often. And so it goes.

Are you having a similar experience?

Did I See A Ghost?

December 29 – I want to write this before I forget it because it was startling what happened. My son was outside walking the dog. He wasn’t supposed to be outside for more than a few minutes so while I was cooking dinner, I checked out the window to make sure all was ok, and it was. I could see him and the dog clearly even though it was getting dark because it was after sunset.

A few minutes went by and I looked outside again. Behind my son’s left shoulder was a young man. He was standing next to my son and the dog was on the leash in front of my son. I wondered who stopped by our house to see the dog (because he’s a new puppy). I figured it was one of my older son’s friends considering the person was a full head taller than my son.

He was dressed in a dark jacket and jeans, had dark hair and a friendly smile on his face. He looked to be about 25 years old. I couldn’t really see who he was though, and couldn’t figure out which friend of my sons’ he was. I was standing in the window looking out trying to figure it out when my son looked up and waved to me. And the other person did too. I waved back and then decided to go outside to see who this was.

But to my complete and utter disbelief, when I asked my son who the person was next to him (and he was no longer there when I got outside), my son said there hadn’t been anyone with him. He’d been alone outside with the dog. My mouth gaping open, I kept asking him who stopped by to say hello and stand with him outside with the dog. But he kept looking at me as if I were crazy because there hadn’t been anyone.

But I know that I saw someone with him. Clear as day and as a solid person. Even writing this brings me a sense of centering as if the knowing affirms this. I am not frightened, just curious and I want to know more…

This is not the first time this has happened. I saw my Mom two weeks after she passed, standing in my kitchen smiling. She wasn’t transparent, but instead looked as if she were really there. I blinked and kept looking at her thinking that my eyes were playing tricks on me because I had come into the house from the bright sunny day outside. But she stayed there for a few minutes and I was locked into place. I was smiling so big and said, “Hi Mom. So good to see you.” I remember being transfixed just seeing her standing there. Within a minute when I closed my eyes again, she vanished. But I knew in my heart that she had come to let me know that she is with me. I feel her often here so I know that to be true.

But I have no idea who this man was…do you?

Lean In and Listen

Shhh…don’t speak. Just open your ears and close your eyes. Do you hear it? The sound of my voice? I’m quietly speaking directly to you. Heart to heart. Mind to mind. Soul to soul.

Are you aware of the background noise? The birds outside your window pane? The muffled chirping in the distance? Good. The winds are coming for a change here. The clouds are blowing through. We are not done with the changes. Perhaps a little storm is brewing but it isn’t anything more than a little shake up or shake down. Do not be afraid. Hold steady and allow the waves to wash away all that is not needed anymore. All the debris that no longer matters. Let go of it. Allow it to be released from you.

it is time to be cleansed from the darkness and to embrace the light, the kindness and the faith that love will find a way. Do not feel alone for we are among you. If you search you will find us out in plain view. Your blindness no longer is available for you to not see what is here now. Your brain can now comprehend what is here if you allow yourself to take that necessary step forward out of your comfort zone and into the bliss of love.

Do not stop yourself rom the abundance that is here for you. There is plenty for all if you only believe. Do not doubt what is even when the vision seems cloudy. It is simply one more veil that needs to be removed and it will in time. This all takes time. And while you may feel the time is moving so slowly, it is actually quickening as we perspire for the changes to come.

And there are changes. You must be ready to center yourself in order to allow the changes to lift you and not drown you in their absolution. Fear not. Trust us. You will be guided at the time.

Listen to Mother Earth. Be one with nature. This is our gift.

I Look To The Light

In troubled times, I look to the light. For the Light shines even in the darkest of days. It is only through the darkness that we can truly see the Light so while troubled times feel dark (and they are) there is hope still shining.

A new dawn, the sunset, the moon rise and the cyclical time line that begets days and nights, seasons and years continues. Like breath, we find ourselves comfortably numb to the magic that is life. We dissolve our tears and disappointments and forget about counting our blessings. Seeing the bigger picture and not concentrating on the trials and tribulations of the human experience.

We chose down into our shells and withdraw. We allow negativity to loop and feel as if there is no place to go. We lose our energetic wisdom and ties to the Light. We lose ourselves in the infinite changing world.

I look to the Light when this happens. Innately as with breathing, I come back to Source as my centeredness increases. I find strength in the Light. My powerful source of union with all that is mine by Divine Right. With the enthusiasm of a child surprised by an overnight snow, I feel the magic of healing releasing me from the tethers of darkness to rise again and shine.

The Light and the Darkness work in tandem to help us. I do not fear the Darkness in the same way as others do. Darkness is the helpful reminder to me that there is Light. Yin and Yang. The duality of life experiences as we human beings walk this path on the earth.

As beacons of the Light, we connect with each other without fear. We bond in our humanity, our frailties and our strengths. Each helping the other on this life journey. For all of our circumstances are similar – each with its own set of characters, situations and pains, but jointly as a growing experience. I can understand your story as you can understand mine when we connect with Light.

We ascend en masse though perhaps each at his/her own speed. A helping hand, a listening ear, a compassionate heart and with wisdom through our own personal experiences we rise together. Lighting the way for the others.

2021 CONNECTIONS

Happy 2021! I feel affirmations for 2021 bubbling up inside of me. There’s an enthusiasm that’s percolating within me. An energy of positivity and an increase in intuitiveness. My body feels at peace, but also excited with anticipation of how this year ahead will unfold. So I have to ask myself: How do I want 2021 to be for me? While I like to allow life to unfold, I am also well-aware that I need to be present and to work with what I am given. Strive for what I feel is important and help others along the way.

I have friends who choose a word for the coming year which encompasses the year for them. Do you do the same? Can you think of one that would work for you?

Mine is CONNECTIONS…for I believe that works for me in a myriad of ways.

Feel free to share your word for 2021 or the image or direction in which you feel intuitively is yours. I can’t wait to read them! Come join me on this journey – EVOLUTION of REMEMBERING ME! This is YOUR REMEVOLUTION!!!

Hold My Hand

I awaken some mornings with a song in my head. Well, not quite the whole song, but a few lines of the lyrics or sometimes even just the music so that I recognize it. This morning was no exception. I heard “Hold My Hand” which is something I often say to people when they’re going through difficult times.

The song I heard in my head is by Hootie and the Blowfish and is a song I haven’t heard, nor thought about in years. It’s funny how the Knowing works with me. I get clues and outright signs.

Because this morning a friend called me in the early morning hours and told me how I should branch out and help others in the new year because so many are needing support, help and compassion. She told me how I had helped her healing because often I say, “Hold my hand and we’ll walk together” so that she wasn’t alone. I began chuckling to myself and when she was finished talking, I explained how I had heard that song today and then, she had used the exact words. Synchronicity.

I have always said that I can do anything (and I have) when I know a trusted person is holding my hand. While I’d rather physically hold a hand, it’s not possible these days with what’s going on, so we imagine we are holding hands in the spiritual way. That works almost as well.

I have held many hands over the years and walked with them as they navigated this life journey. I have been fortunate myself to have had my hand held by many as well and I feel very blessed.

The lines in the lyrics that I heard this morning were:

Hold my hand
Want you to hold my hand
Hold my hand
I’ll take you to the promised land
Hold my hand
Maybe we can’t change the world but
I wanna love you the best that, the best that I can.

Isn’t life so interesting? I have been smiling ear to ear all morning because I keep hearing the song and I know I’m where I belong.

Reach out if you need a hand to hold. I’m here.

Holding Steady

Channeled:

“You do not need to fight the waves that come, nor the tides that turn, nor the winds that blow. You only need to Hold Steady as the tree does in the windstorm. Bend with the flow so you do not break. Ride the waves with ease. Put away the thoughts of suffering so that they do not drown you. You can stay afloat in this turbulence if you allow what is happening to flow. You are protected divinely. Allow the upset to flow through you. Do not fight this as what you resist, persists. There is a reason that perhaps you do not yet understand as to why these swirls of disturbance are occurring.

Stay faithful in your being. Be who you are authentically. Others can be flailing about, but it is not your job to do any more than to be yourself. Help when you can, but do not be invested in the sheer emotionally chaos that is not ours.

Be with those who need and want the help. Be the steady light in the midst of the fear, the static and the blowing winds of change.

You do not need to fix anyone, nor change anything. It is all happening at once which is why the disturbances of some is palpable. They are not able to keep up with the changing energies as you are. And it is ok. That is why you are here. To aid in the change that is storming in on high seas.

There’s no need to change course. You need to simply Hold Steady. Be the lighthouse of healing. Allow those to come to you. Listen with a compassionate heart. Allow it all to unfold in the right time for this is the journey you have chosen.”

Guide, but do not push. Help, but do not entangle. Hold, but do not enmesh. Unite, but do not divide.

Hold Steady dear ones. We are with you. Love is by your side. You are protected, but you are not invincible. Each and every soul here sails their own boat on this journey. We intersect when needed. We bump. We parallel and we go with the flow of the Universe.

Your job is to remain an open channel of wisdom to unite, to heal, and to Hold Steady.

Continue on your path. Let it all flow to you, through you and beyond you. All is well even in the most massive of storms. Believe. Be. Connect. Empower. Hold steady.

Who’s On The Telephone?

When I was a child, phones were attached to the wall in the home. Phone receivers were attached by a long curly cord that stretched from the phone itself. Do you remember these? Back in those days, (LOL), there was no such thing as Caller ID, answering machines or even call waiting. Yup, I’m that many years old! Long distance calls were expensive and we only had landlines. Cell phones didn’t come around for decades. So you never knew when the phone was going to ring or who was on the other end when you picked it up.

My parents were strict and we were taught to answer the phone in a formal manner. For practice, whenever the phone rang, we were the ones to get up and walk over the wall where it was because my parents didn’t want to move and it was exciting to see who was calling!

I remember when I was in the younger grades in school that even though a phone call was hardly ever for me, I began to know when the phone would ring. I know this sounds strange, but it’s true. When the knowing first began to happen, I couldn’t wait to tell my parents that I knew the phone was going to ring. I would get the sensation that the phone was going to ring and then I’d excitedly tell my parents. They looked at me strangely, but then, when the phone would ring, they laughed. But the more my phone predictions happened, the less enthusiastic they were about it. When I began to know who the caller was, my parents were even more unsettled. They tried all different ways to see how I was doing what they referred to as a parlor trick, but I hadn’t any answers. I just sensed the phone was going to ring and had a feeling about who was calling. There might have been magic to it, but nothing I could control.

After awhile, I stopped telling them since it seemed to upset them. But I still would tap into the knowing of who was on the other line and even work on counting down to the actual ring of the phone in order to test myself. I remember getting that knowing feeling and thinking: the phone will ring in 5 seconds and then counting down 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 and wait for the phone would ring. I thought it was wonderful, but nobody else did. They looked at me strangely and made me wish I had never told them.

So one day, I just decided to stop. I didn’t want them to think I was strange or not normal. I wanted to fit in with my family even though I’d always felt I was different. But being a part of them was more important to me at the time so I worked on ignoring the knowing. I felt like if I turned off the knowing then they’d like me more and I wouldn’t be looked upon so strangely.

I turned my back on the connection with the knowing. Now that I look back, it was as if it I disabled that ability in myself. I hid it in order to be like the others. After awhile, I forgot about it and moved on. Caught up in the vortex of normal life, being like everyone else and certainly not standing out.

I had quite forgotten my phone abilities until recently. Just like I had forgotten Tommie (see prior post). It seems the Evolution of Remembering Me has begun in earnest. I began this blog in the beginning of 2020, but it isn’t until now that these energetic shifts are becoming more real to me.

Did you ever know when the phone was going to ring? Or who the caller was?

The Eternal Optimist

The Optimist Creed

Promise Yourself

To be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind.

To talk health, happiness and prosperity to every person you meet.

To make all your friends feel that there is something in them.

To look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true.

To think only of the best, to work only for the best, and to expect only the best.

To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as you are about your own.

To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.

To wear a cheerful countenance at all times and give every living creature you meet a smile.

To give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others.

To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

By: Optimist International

I feel like this says it all! Does this inspire you too?

Remevolution – The Evolution of Remembering Me

What Is Intuition to Me?

Intuition is like this:

I know something, but I don’t know how I know it. But I know that I know it. And I can’t explain how it is that I know it. Nor can I tell you if it’s a voice that tells me or that it’s a feeling that comes over me. But I will say that when I write/speak the knowing because I know deep down that I have a message for someone, I get goosebumps up and down my body as a confirmation of truth. Or at least that’s how I perceive it.

I find that when I speak what I know without couching the message to taste more palatable to someone else, it delivers its message with uncanny accuracy. But sometimes I admit, I do speak the message in subtler form in order for the other person to be able to process what it is that I am delivering. And I know when I am to do that or better said, when it’s ok to do it.

Perhaps this makes no sense to you or perhaps you understand completely. I know I am not alone in this situation and I would love to hear from those of you who have had similar experiences. Whether you’ve been the conduit or the receiver, please share below.

Remevolution – The Evolution of Remembering Me