When I was a little girl, after my Mom came in to say my prayers with me, turned off the light, kissed my forehead and told me to go to sleep, I would still stay awake and talk to Tommie. I don’t recall when I first began talking to Tommie, but even as a young age, I remember talking with Tommie before I closed my eyes.
I would recount my day to Tommie every night. When I was very young, I would whisper to Tommie, but that evolved into just talking with her in my mind. Especially after my Mom came in one night and asked me who I was talking with and I replied Tommie. My Mom’s reaction didn’t go well. She had a hard time understanding my explanation and so I began to just converse with Tommie in my mind without speaking outloud.
My sister had an imaginary friend who was around her age, but that wasn’t Tommie. She was not a playmate. She had more of a motherly kindness to her. She listened with a compassionate heart and sometimes gave me tidbits of wisdom.
I remember just telling her about my day and as a child it was about school, my friends and even about my family and what I had for dinner. But I also remember talking with her about what worried me and it always seemed that even though I could never see her, she soothed me. She didn’t speak to me outloud. I never heard her voice in my ear. Instead it was as if we spoke telepathically. I knew what she said to me.
I have often wondered if she were a figment of my imagination, but I truly doubt it. Whether she’s a deceased relative, a spirit guide, a guardian angel or perhaps even my subconscious, I don’t know for sure. She stayed with me until my early teens when I didn’t take the time to pray as much before bedtime. It wasn’t that she left me, but that my family teased me about my strange abilities so I turned away from them deliberately. Now I’m feeling as though they are returning.
I haven’t thought of Tommie in years so I’m finding it so interesting that she came to mind today. Throughout the years since childhood, I have always felt a presence in my life. It seems that suddenly I am emerging again into that place of knowing and awareness.
I am excited to return to Me again….
The Evolution of Remembering Me….
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This is beautiful, thank you. I also had an imaginary friend but she was more of a companion, dressed like Little House on the Prairie. No one acted as if it were out of the ordinary, I remember she went with us on car trips. Pretty funny. I still have imaginary notfriends like Jasper. 🙂
How lovely that yours was not considered out of the ordinary. My sister’s imaginary friend was similar to yours. Mine however, was a different story and thus I stopped referring to mine after awhile. Do you remember her name?
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What a great question and no I don’t remember her name, or even if she had one. I have a vision of sitting in the back seat as we’re driving somewhere and she’s sitting next to me in a calico dress with a white apron and I’m telling her about things “nowadays”. I’m sure it wasn’t out loud, prob was silent, always daydreaming. Great memory, thank you. Kind of sad tho, you know?
Perhaps you can reconnect? You never know….
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I think she filled the need at the time; I need a new imaginary friend lol.