Message From Ascension Light Workers

What are Ascension symptoms and why you might be experiencing them?

We are in a big paradigm shift, transitioning into much higher consciousness.

The new earth is birthing.

The vibration on Earth is rising.

We are being exposed to massive amounts of light and very high frequencies from many different avenues: mother earth, the leylines, crystals, solar flares, planetary alignments, angels, spirit helpers, our collective collaboration to be love, joy, connection, and much more.

It’s really exciting and yet the energies can be very intense, strong, and potent as our bodies are making the adjustments to this new frequency.

The body is very dense so we can feel all sorts of different symptoms due to the upgrading we are going through.

These are some of the current Ascension Symptoms

1. Clumsy behaviors: dropping or forgetting things, and acting before thinking.

2. Changes in body temperature, including hot flashes and sweating without cause.

3. Flu-like symptoms that come and go seemingly at a whim. It never lasts long, sometimes only an hour or so.

4. Fluttering heart, increased pulse, and a warm feeling that spreads through the chest.

5. Overheating is a common ascension symptom, especially through hot flashes and night sweats. It can be sporadic and irregular or constant and very regular in equal regard.

6. Coldness, decrease in blood circulation and an inability to get warm. Sometimes accompanies flu-like symptoms.

Often temporary and gone as quick as it came.

7. Sense of smell becomes more sensitive. Things start to smell a bit different and a lot more powerfully. Related to allergies flaring up as well as any pre-existing sinus problems.

8. Upheaval in terms of sleep schedule and quality. Insomnia and fatigue are as likely as each other, though it is most likely for you to experience both at different times.

9. Being pulled away from civilization and modernity, towards nature and the wisdom of the past.

10. Withdrawal, usually to get some time alone and away from the energy of others.

11. Increase in psychic powers: Clair- senses, telepathic connection, tarot/oracle reading, and intuitive thinking.

12. Dietary changes and weight loss or gain. Loss of appetite is common, and a change in taste is even more so, with a shift towards healthier foods.

13. Upheaval within your life that comes out of the blue. It could be a change of job, friends, or family relationships. You might get the urge to travel or move.

14. Period of very high energy and intense creativity that overrides everything else you are doing.

15. Problems with judging the passing of time.

16. Louder, smarter, and more talkative inner voice.

17. Lack of focus, foggy head, and lack of clarity, often leads to forgetfulness and distraction.

18. Disruption to electronics, electrical fittings, and lighting.

19. Buzzing in the chakra centers and high energy flow between them. Many of the Ascension symptoms you are experiencing are related to excess energy, exciting your chakras.

20. Sudden onset of bad reactions to foods that you were fine with before, especially highly processed food with lots of chemical additives.

21. Changes in the growth rate and appearance of the hair and nails.

22. Difficulty maintaining a healthy sleep cycle. Waking up in the middle of the night for no apparent reason on a regular basis. More vivid and lucid dreams.

23. Extra sensitivity to sound. It often causes a bit of anxiety as our ears can be very important to our states of mind. Often accompanied by a change in music tastes.

24. An increase in epiphanies, original thought, and revelations.

25. Mood swings and a short temper, unpredictable to anyone around you, but also to yourself.

26. High emotional sensitivity. You experience bouts of extreme happiness or upset, feeling unable to regulate your own emotional state.

27. Having the distinct and unavoidable need to find your true self.

28. Baseless worrying and unfounded anxiety that seems to have absolutely no cause.

29. A yearning for a place to call home, and the intuitive knowledge that where you are is not truly home for you.

30. Incidents, however rare, of channeling: spoken or written.

31. Feelings of Unconditional Love and Peace, oneness with the Universe, and an appreciation for all-natural things.

32. Excitation of the Crown chakra, which can cause tingling sensations on the top of the head. It can also cause pressure and headaches.

33. Sudden digestive issues, including flaring up of existing conditions like IBS.

34. Aches and pains in muscles and joints that don’t have an explanation.

35. Latent electrical power in your muscles causes twitching, tingling, and spasming. This usually occurs on the legs and arms but can appear anywhere.

36. Disassociation with the physical body, feeling not quite at home within it. It almost feels clunky, which is linked with clumsiness.

37. A feeling that there are spirits and other higher beings around you all of the time.

38. More intense dreams, including lucid dreams. Sometimes they can be prophetic but they can leave you mentally and emotionally exhausted.

39. You can see the occasional hint of an aura around objects and people.

40. A distinct but vague sense of urgency, like the clock is ticking quicker.

41. Some flashes of telepathic power.

42. A deep knowledge that you have a mission here on Earth, and a strong urge to do all that is possible to fulfill that mission.

43. A sharp uptick in the amount of synchronicity that you experience on a daily basis. Pay attention to the signs in order to discover their meaning.

44. Feeling isolated and cut off from others, despite often being to blame for that fact.

45. You feel within your intuition that something has changed. You can’t shake the feeling that something big is happening within your soul.

46. Sudden and temporary skin conditions like rashes, acne or patches of dry skin.

47. More daydreaming and ambitious thinking, accompanied by bursts of creativity and productivity that are achieving results.

48. Visual artifacts and changes in eyesight. This can be either way, with vision getting better or worse.

No, you are not going crazy, although it may feel like it!

As we remove the out dated programming of the matrix 3D density and we process and integrate more of what is real , the ascension symptoms start to lose their intensity and an inner balance is restored .

It’s important to stay patient while these big changes are taking place within.

We are all navigating our way through these new earth energies, through the dark times, and it can be very overwhelming and exhausting.

Learning who you truly are, at the soul level is now more important than ever.

This is not always easy as we face parts of ourselves that have been dormant, likely since childhood. You are clearing years of outdated conditioning!

Physically, what is happening is that your cellular structure is changing to accommodate a higher frequency within the body.

This coincides with the major planetary shifting that is taking place.

Spiritually, what is happening is that you are becoming more aligned with your true self, your soul, your spirit.

This is what we are all really here to do.

In Service and Loving Devotion .

Ascension Light Workers

It’s Friday?

I awoke this morning after a disturbing sleep, very early in the morning and completely discombobulated. I had no idea upon opening my eyes where I was, and I was a little shaky on who I was. I didn’t know what day it was either.

I looked to my watch to see it was around 6am and then tried really hard to figure out what day it was. I finally gave up and checked my phone which was next to me. As I slowly acclimated to my surroundings and who I am in this lifetime, I couldn’t shake the feeling that ‘I don’t belong here’ and the remnants of last night’s disturbing sleep hung tightly to me.

It’s been awhile, and I mean a loooong time since I’ve had anything like this so I immediately opened the computer to type. Hoping to find some sort of message if I allowed the Knowing to type. It’s strange though, even the English words I’m typing don’t look quite right to me.

Last night I was fighting with my cat who was insistent on sleeping on me. She wanted to lay on my chest and purr, but her weight makes it difficult for me with her cat paws to be comfortable as she walks on me especially after having had open heart surgery a few months ago. She was bumping her head against me periodically, but I’ve had instances when she’s done that and then for some reason given me a slight nip (graze only) and I didn’t want that, so I kept pulling my extremities under the covers to protect me. In the midst of all of that which went on for quite awhile and repeatedly throughout the night, I was dreaming/ nightmaring a lot of crazy stuff. I had a new job and was young and had to park my car, but there were no spaces available. When I found a garage, that was supposed to give me a discount, they refused. I tried to just pay full price as I was going to be late for work and the owner/manager wouldn’t let me park there and pay full price and told me to leave. I couldn’t do what I just wanted to do so that I could get to work on time even though it would cost me more unnecessarily. I ended up leaving the garage and trying to park on the street where there were no spaces available. I was so frustrated. People were honking at me. Yelling at me. I was beginning to cry and I woke up….to the cat walking on my chest purring slightly and apparently trying to get comfortable while I was trying to get comfortable too.

Not a good night. I now know it’s Friday. And I’ve fed the cat breakfast so I have some quiet time without interruption. I have a full day ahead, but my nerves are scattered and edgy. My heart is beating quickly even though I know who I am, where I am, etc. I hope I’m not having a heart attack. I wish my heart would stop its quickstep and just beat normally. My fingers have been numb lately and I’ve got neuropathy. I have a pimple inside my nose which hurts so much and I’m stuffed up in my nose and lungs.

I wonder if it’s all related?

Lion’s Gate Opening

August 8th is better known in spiritual circles as Lion’s Gate. If you search Lion’s Gate, I’m sure you will be inundated with information so I shan’t repeat it here. That would be boring, especially if you’re already in the know.

Instead, my concentration is on The Evolution of Remembering Me – REMEVOLUTION – which ties into the spiritual wave that happens today. The leaving behind and gathering of those who will continue on in this next chapter in their evolution of ascension. If you want to come along, I’ll save a seat for you.

It’s almost 8 weeks since I had open heart surgery. A few days ago I quit taking the meds that I didn’t feel were good for me. I’ve done that before with breast cancer before as well as I’m not a fan of pill popping. But yesterday I was back to the cardiologist who gave me two new prescriptions which if you knew me, you’d know I despise. We shall see how long I take them.

The last few nights I’ve had dream visitors – people whom I haven’t thought of in years as well as deceased relatives. In last night’s dream, I was pregnant, sitting at a table with my deceased parents. I think I was my current age which is past prime for childbearing. The ‘father’ of my unborn child was there as well, but I can’t tell you who he is. I have a feeling he’s my first love, a man who holds a special spot in my heart. But why he was there, I do not know as of yet. And how I could be pregnant? LOL

Interestingly, my deceased father gave me money. Across the table he put down a fan of bills which I knew was more than the $200 needed for a massage because I remember saying that I was uncomfortable in my body and it was suggested that I get a massage but I didn’t want to spend the money on it. My father would rarely surprise us with money as he didn’t have a lot himself. But he did treat me a few times when he was alive because I needed financial help. He did it secretly and nobody knew for which I’m grateful.

The veil seems very thin with this supermoon. They are around and showing themselves if you begin to notice (and they want you to notice)!

Waiting On Emergence

A holding pattern for sure. Waiting in anticipation for something to arrive. Or perhaps better said, someone to arrive – me! I’ve had a difficult few weeks just existing, nothing more, nothing less. I’ve stopped my daily routine and simply exist as I heal. Not focused and unable to do more than ‘be’ for the time being. I liken it to the final weeks before a chick cracks the egg open. Nothing much going on, but increasing in size as we wait on emergence.

My hope, my goal, my intention is to emerge with more understanding, more grace and unity to this world, or better said, to the world to which I belong, which isn’t necessarily here. But so far I am in this constant fragile state of non-being. Without paddle nor energy, here I am, biding away the time without counting the hours because it doesn’t matter. Nothing really matters and it’s not me.

The apathy is difficult to navigate even though there’s nothing to navigate since my life is overflowing with apathy. Occasionally there are blips of connections, but they are few and far between. It’s as if there isn’t enough energy for the two tabs to connect often. And so it goes.

Are you having a similar experience?

Spiritual Process

Why can’t I get to a place of peace? If I know that what is meant to be will happen and I have trust and faith in God/Universe, then why am I questioning everything I’m feeling? It’s the human experience I think that has me choking on all that I know innately.

I’m suffering in anticipation, fear and pain. Worrying about myself and all with whom I’ve connected. Wanting to write letters to everyone before the surgery so they know how much I appreciate them. Giving wisdom to my children in the form of a letter in case I don’t make it. How freaking dramatic can I be?

I used to follow a man who had ALS, who wrote his blogs using his eye movement as he couldn’t speak nor move. He was so inspiring that I cried when his wife posted that he had passed away. He was extraordinary, full of faith and love. Beyond the common man, he had found peace and shared it with us all. He was unshaken hope even though he was trapped in this body. His soul was amazingly full of wisdom which he shared freely. How I wish I could read his blog again because I could definitely use that infusion of hope.

I look at my worn out body, tracked with scars like major railroad crossings. I anticipate even more scars after the next surgery. How much can the human body endure I wonder? Do I have the strength to do it?

What If?

What if this is my ending? What if I only have a few weeks left in which to make memories with those whom I love? What if something goes terribly wrong in my surgery? There are no guarantees, which I understand.

I harken back to my first cancer surgery and I remember vividly hugging my now ex-husband, thinking the worst. Like this could be the last time. I had two little kids at home who were blissfully unaware that their mom had really bad cancer. With the first surgery I didn’t stop breathing on the OR table, but in a subsequent one, I did. While they revived me, and I didn’t know for awhile that it had even happened (nobody told me), I fear the worst again.

What if…

Part of me thinks, well, then that’s it. Pack it up and move to the stars. I wouldn’t be able to change anything anyway. So why put effort into the fear? I’ve always thought we have a predestined death date that will come no matter what. So, why am I so fearful that this may be it? If I can be at peace, knowing that I have done all that I could in this lifetime then, so be it.

But I know I haven’t done all I could have. And yet, where does this leave me?

Back to square one…searching for answers, hence my posting on my blog.

Thanks for reading…and letting me process.

Navigating The Anticipation Of What If

I don’t know how to navigate this time in my life. I’m scheduled for Open Heart Surgery in a few weeks which is a major surgery due to a genetic defect that I’ve had my whole life. I never knew I had this problem even though the signs were all there. No doctor ever figured it out and what I had always thought was normal for me – fainting, low blood pressure and a heart murmur – I’ve suddenly found out isn’t normal. Who knew? Family always thought I was over-dramatic because I was always tired. They thought I was lazy. I have a diagnosis of Chronic Fatigue due to cancer, radiation, multiple surgeries and chemotherapy, but that made no difference to them.

I’m exhausted, even more exhausted than usual now that I have this worrisome anticipation of upcoming surgery. Emotional, physical, mental and on a soul level, I’m distraught. I’ve always been a planner so this has totally changed me because there are so many ‘what if’s’ involved in this procedure that I can’t wrap my head around it.

I swing from not wanting to stay here on this plane to wanting to fight my way to health. There’s no middle ground for me. It’s as if I’m on a roller coaster mentally. I’m not sleeping well as I guess my subconscious is trying to work out everything while I’m asleep. I want to push away all of the kind-hearted friendships I have and at the same time, I want someone to take care of me, baby me, hold me and help me. It’s not easy being in this situation. Not easy for them, nor me. I don’t think my kids can grasp the idea either and they’ve been through a lot with me.

Maintaining a steady course feels impossible. I’ve been reading, researching and that has caused a lot of fear to massively inch its way into my psyche. Sure, I realize people have this surgery everyday and I’m not an abnormality as so many people tell me stories about people they know who have had the surgery and ‘been fine’ afterwards. I don’t care to hear any more stories. I know that sounds selfish, but I can’t handle it.

I’m frustrating, I know that. I can’t even keep up with how I feel moment to moment so how could anyone else?

Where Did “I” Go?

I lost myself along the way. I don’t know how or why I let that authentic me fade away. Well, I guess I know why – because life got in the way, responsibilities, family, kids, divorce, financial and health issues and now look at me. Sometimes I feel like a shadowy figure of my true self. Where the hell did I go?

And who am I? When I dare to go within and reach down to the touchstone of who I am, there’s a void there that was once fulfilled and filled. Overflowing with life, enthusiasm, joy and love. Unafraid to say yes to life, to be goofy, to be present and to be herself. Confident to show her true self without fear. Feeling loved, self-love and appreciated by others. One who smiled without needing encouragement, connected easily with others and who loved life itself.

That self is a mere whisper, so faint that I can barely hear her and I don’t think you can either. But there’s an inner strength within her that is calling me out to write. To figure out how and if I can manage to navigate these coming troubled waters in regards to fixing the heart via surgery. Because yes, my heart is broken. But do I even want to try to go through western medicine to fix it?

There are a lot of layers to my pain and how I arrived at this juncture in my life. I’ve been peeling back the layers for awhile now, hoping to pinpoint the wrong fork in the road I chose so that I could get back on track. But that hasn’t happened yet. Perhaps it’s just as well for that wouldn’t change much. It would only increase the guilt of not being perfect in my choices.

I know I’m hard on myself. If you think I’m hard on you, think again, for I am way worse on me. Nothing I had thought my life would be has occurred the way I planned. Somewhere along the way, I lost me and I can’t find me again. I’m digging through the debris, but there’s no sign, no marker to even show I’m even digging in the vicinity.

God help me that I’m still trying even though there are moments when I want to bail and just let life continue on without modern medicine fixing me. Enjoy what little I have left and do it without fear of reprisal, judgment etc. but that’s not my reality at this point. Too many people rely on me for me to be so selfish, even though I’d like to dare it.

That’s how I’m feeling at this juncture. The evolution of finding me continues…a lifelong adventure that apparently is here to stay.

Just Existing

I think that’s how I can sum up how I feel lately. I’m just existing. Not exactly finding pleasure or joy in the world, but not terribly, nor completely miserable. Just existing. Like the bobber floating on the water’s surface, not really moving, but being moved occasionally by the fisherman (Universe?) or the circumstances. Either way, it’s like a blank sheet of paper without a pen. A holding pattern with no trail to follow.

I know it’s all going to change shortly as I’m scheduled for open heart surgery in the near future. I’ve already had a few health circumstances that shook my world up and turned it upside down. I’m sure that this one will do similarly. So I guess I should be happy that I’m in this sorta steady holding pattern at the moment. But I’m not.

I don’t want to just exist here on this planet. I know from whence I come and I want to go back. While I won’t take my own life, there are times where I just don’t want to be here and I wonder if people who know me in real life understand that at all. Or even are aware of it.

I have told a few trusted spiritually ascending friends. I believe they understand and I know of one who feels similarly. But the majority just don’t get it and when/if I bring up that perhaps my time here is up, they immediately begin to tell me how much I mean to them, how I have to fight for my health and how it’s all going to be ok.

I want to scoff aloud, but I don’t because I know they are well-meaning and truly feel that way. But the bigger picture is that I lost my will to live awhile back. My heart’s been broken for awhile now. Even though I’d like to be here for my children, it feels like too much energy to exert on this broken-hearted body which barely has enough energy to get up each morning and function in the basics.

People don’t understand all that I’ve endured, nor do they get what’s really coming for me with the open heart surgery and healing process afterwards. It’s easy to throw the words around that they’ll be here, keep me in their prayers etc., but it’s me who’s fighting that battle to heal. I just don’t know if I care to do it.

Does that make me lazy? Mean? Careless? Selfish? or simply truthful?

The Theraphi Experience

I had a session of Theraphi almost two months ago. Have you ever heard of Theraphi? You can read about it here. It’s a healing modality, but my world got turned upside down in that session like it never had before, nor since.

You see, I left my body. I felt my human suit open (unzipped by the group of white beings surrounding the table I was lying on) and my light body inside began to float up into the sky. I felt like I was flying. I saw and experienced, the clouds, the sky, the sun, the stars, and finally landed on another planet. I believe it was Venus.

Then, I left that planet and moved beyond our galaxy. Soaring in my light body for what seemed like ages, through the darkness glittering with beautifully full stars, I landed again, beyond our knowingness onto another plane. There, I was greeted by other similar light bodies who welcomed me.

I was home!! I KNEW I was home. As they gathered around me, I felt a such an incredible whoosh of peace and knowledge. As if I had no more questions; I knew everything there was to know about life. All knowing and so comfortable there, I rejoiced with them. Finally feeling as if I were home again. I remember smiling throughout my entire being with utter peace, love and light within me. I was the most happy, content, at peace, I had ever remembered being.

However, that peaceful contentment was disturbed when I was ‘told’ telepathically, that I had to return (to earth), that I had a job to do, that I knew I had signed up for it and it wasn’t completed. But I didn’t want to go back. I wanted to stay. With a part of my soul that felt as if it were ripped from me, I felt as if I suddenly and clunkily landed back into the human suit where white beings who were surrounding me were stuffing clouds into the human suit around my light body and zipping me back up again in order to be presentable to the earth. (Their last words to me were ‘zircon’ which I later purchased and now wear around my neck.)

I remember stirring when the Theraphi operator came into the room to let me know that my time was up. Only 15 minutes had passed since I had laid on the table, but time had been warped for the experience. When I opened my eyes, I knew I was back and began to cry. While I understood that my fate was to be returned here to complete the soul journey, I didn’t want to accept it. Everything felt differently now that I was back from the experience. I knew that I didn’t belong here. I felt utterly isolated from the human experience and the seemingly 3D human crisis’ that I hadn’t wanted to deal with before this return from my ‘home’ and people. The otherworldly feeling has continued with me to this day.

It has not been easy living this way.